Here I am at 28 still feeling confused as fuck about thing. It never gets any easier this much I've figured out I once though some part of life would get easier but no it doesn't.
Tomorrow I'm seeing Lisa so the plans seem to be going so far which I'm excited about she's a great girl not too many of those are out there at least not ones taken and who can handle my strange behavior. It sucks that I don't get to see her more but perhaps not seeing someone as much makes it more fun who knows. It's noting too serious at the moment but it's still going good. I'm still kind of torn with the Tori thing I've been just not saying anything or talking to her at all. Tonight she messaged me which I don't know I was happy to talk to her she's just a different sort of person. I respect her for what she is and how she works so hard towards her goal of what she wants to be even though it seems to consume her I really sort of worry about her she tells me how she thinks she has some kind of heart murmur because it seems to beat funny at times. I guess with her there is the just the uncertainy which draws me in but at the same time I try to avoid it's all fucked up somehow. Part of me wishes she would go away and part of me wishes she would ask me to hang out. There are just i dont know confusion.
I just need to make out with a cute girl is all that would make things much better rather than thinking of getting serious or liking.
Tomorrow I'm seeing Lisa so the plans seem to be going so far which I'm excited about she's a great girl not too many of those are out there at least not ones taken and who can handle my strange behavior. It sucks that I don't get to see her more but perhaps not seeing someone as much makes it more fun who knows. It's noting too serious at the moment but it's still going good. I'm still kind of torn with the Tori thing I've been just not saying anything or talking to her at all. Tonight she messaged me which I don't know I was happy to talk to her she's just a different sort of person. I respect her for what she is and how she works so hard towards her goal of what she wants to be even though it seems to consume her I really sort of worry about her she tells me how she thinks she has some kind of heart murmur because it seems to beat funny at times. I guess with her there is the just the uncertainy which draws me in but at the same time I try to avoid it's all fucked up somehow. Part of me wishes she would go away and part of me wishes she would ask me to hang out. There are just i dont know confusion.
I just need to make out with a cute girl is all that would make things much better rather than thinking of getting serious or liking.
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A lot of girls I know, if they like a boy they'll dole out lots of attention, then back off just to see if he'll start making moves. It's a test to see if they're(the girl) actually liked or just a convenience (to the boy).
But....everyone's different, so....I could be dead wrong.