blueleftshoe

I haven't left the house since I had lunch with Kristy saturday. I ended up getting lost on my way there internet directions are just retarded and were not even close to being right. The lunch was good it was nice to chat with a friend I really care about that I haven't seen for a while. We ended up checking out this cupcake shop in hudson afterwards which ended up being pretty good I got a half dozen they were a bit expensive though. Mmm they smell wonderful though cupcakes might be one of the best smells ever.

I'm off today so it looks like another lazy day of doing nothing perhaps I'll actually read today. With it being freezing and being broke I'm just not in the mood to go anywhere. I'm in a sort of depressed confused sort of mood lately too I don't know I think too much. That's one of the downsides of my introverted sort of personalities I even have a hard time deciding in dreams then i start getting anxiety. I suppose I should just be able to just decide things a bit easier without tearing the whole thing apart looking at every lttle aspect.

I haven't seen Tori in about a week and a half she says she been really busy with school and works a lot. It seems she pretty stressed about of it which I can relate to since I get stressed with school too well when i'm actually going. We talk online but even with that we don't really seem to talk much I'm not sure if that's just interest tapering off or just stress and preoccupation with other things. I don't want to be some stupid ass that sticks around too long when someone isn't interested but at the same time I do like her ugh it's all confusing sappy crap. I do think there are other chances coming along with other people but I feel awkward and confused as what to do there are really no easy answers or maybe there are easy ones and I just refuse to see them. I'm starting to realize why I was avoiding all this last year it's never easy and things never go as you'd like it's always rolling the dice deciding which way to go it's always gambling. Somehow I always end up betting on the wrong thing so I try to do the opposite of what I think I should do and that turns out wrong too. I like that it's complicated though I like that it's rough and that I don't know what to do that there is always a risk there it sort of makes things more worth it well if you end up with anything. Of course like always I'm analyzing all of this way too much once again.