I'm just depressed I hate it. I took some tylenol PM to help me sleep which it did I didn't want to wake up perhaps it doesn't help with my mood either. I just don't know what to do or what I'm doing. The depression never goes away no matter how stubborn I try to be with it trying to just make it go away. It feels like such a weakness and personality flaw... it's the reason my life sucks so much at times. I dont want to move or do anything. Sometimes I wish I had a bunch of pills to swallow just so I could sleep forever it's a nice thought anyways. You start to wonder what there is to look forward to and really I see nothing I don't see any sunshine over the horizen fuck me.
I don't like feeling this way and sometimes think if this is how it's going to always be perhaps it's best if check out now instead of just causing people more grief than they need. Sometimes I want to push everyone away so they wont care about me anymore then I can waste away in peace without guilt that I'm hurting or letting them down. This feeling inside is horrible though I hate it. I don't think I'm ever going to get this life thing right... I've had 27 years to figure it out so far and I still don't have a fucking clue.
I don't like feeling this way and sometimes think if this is how it's going to always be perhaps it's best if check out now instead of just causing people more grief than they need. Sometimes I want to push everyone away so they wont care about me anymore then I can waste away in peace without guilt that I'm hurting or letting them down. This feeling inside is horrible though I hate it. I don't think I'm ever going to get this life thing right... I've had 27 years to figure it out so far and I still don't have a fucking clue.
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bahbahblacksheep:
i'm bored, where you been?
blueleftshoe:
i've been around I just haven't been going online lately.