I complain constantly about other people but I really really need to think about what I'm doing.
The sad thing about me at least compared to other people who are dark and miserable is that I sort of enjoy it. I have a bit of a sadist tendency in me I suppose. The idea came into my head last night when I was laying in bed after screwing this girl I hardly know. I'm not comfortable with the good in life something about the bad things in life hold comfort for me.. even if they hurt me I still cherish those moments more.
That girl by the way is a bit off from what I can tell. If I was wiser I would of left well enough alone but I didn't and instead just went for it. I suppose in a way I like that she's a bit off but I can get this feeling things would go bad once things go sour. Intersting so if I ever stop writing it could be because she killed me.
I get a feeling that there are parts of me that are dead completely and totally. I try to bring them back but it doesn't seem to be working I"m just slipping further and further away. I hate fairy tales... my life won't be one. There won't be a happy ending or any savior at the end to make things alright.
The sad thing about me at least compared to other people who are dark and miserable is that I sort of enjoy it. I have a bit of a sadist tendency in me I suppose. The idea came into my head last night when I was laying in bed after screwing this girl I hardly know. I'm not comfortable with the good in life something about the bad things in life hold comfort for me.. even if they hurt me I still cherish those moments more.
That girl by the way is a bit off from what I can tell. If I was wiser I would of left well enough alone but I didn't and instead just went for it. I suppose in a way I like that she's a bit off but I can get this feeling things would go bad once things go sour. Intersting so if I ever stop writing it could be because she killed me.
I get a feeling that there are parts of me that are dead completely and totally. I try to bring them back but it doesn't seem to be working I"m just slipping further and further away. I hate fairy tales... my life won't be one. There won't be a happy ending or any savior at the end to make things alright.
i'm dead too.