for the first time in my life i dont feel like me. i havent a clue who i am anymore. i seriously think a break from reality is a great idea. unfortunaly i cant afford it right now. i honestly feel like shit and that noone gives a fuck. eh im sure ill be fine i just need to have some fun. take care kiddies

And it's even more of a shame that we have to be able to "afford" it at all.
...maybe the dog blood has contaminated you. Could it be that you're transforming into a werewolf, and that's why you don't feel like yourself?
... now sustinence just strolls right by you in the street.