Wednesday Oct 10, 2012

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I miss her beautiful heart. Her crooked smile. Her sweet kisses. Her cuddles. Her voice. Her natural beauty. Her gorgeous hair. Her eyes. Her touch. Her taste. Her smell. Her warmth. Her laugh. I miss...her...
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nene:
<3
anti_:
Because I love you without condition.

Monday Oct 08, 2012

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I have to stop a certain strain of behavior that I have always fallen victim to. I am so desperate for people to like me, to want to be around me, to want me in their lives that I have exhibited some pretty shitty behavior such as lying. Along with this goes the fact that, when I truly have fallen out of favour with them...
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beqa:
I dont have the words to express how much i love this <3
maddfishy:
Someone once asked me what kind of person I wanted to be.
My reply was 'An honest, kind, caring, loving and thoughtful person'
To which the person said 'Give me just one reason you can't be all those things right now.'
I laughed. He laughed. We both knew there was no reason.

You have the awereness of your defects. You have a willingness to change. All that is needed now is action.

Believe in yourself and ANYTHING is possible.

Remember that you nor I will ever be perfect- we are merely human, but we can forgive ourselves, learn from our mistakes, and move forward.
Where we are heading is unimportant, as long as we enjoy the journey.

Love always, smile often and every once in a while stop to breathe...

xxx

Friday Oct 05, 2012

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I wish I would just remember that the best thing when it comes to my journey about myself is to remain vigilant in my thoughts and actions towards others at every turn. This doesn't mean that I can't be sppntaneous and just have a great time; but it means that just when I think I have made progress, holding myself above someone else is me...
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sillynobleman:
PLZ send me a text or PM or something. need some BiGuidance
repo_man:
TLDR

Saturday Sep 29, 2012

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elvis:
I adore watching your videos *swoon*love

Saturday Sep 29, 2012

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Torn between these two sentiments...Let ME REST IN PEACE, LET ME TAKE MY LOVE AND BURY IT IN A HOLE SIX FOOT DEEP; and "I'm under your spell..."


Thursday Sep 27, 2012

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issue_:
ARRR!!!
bettybruises:
So I missed your previous blogs because I was out of town and kind of out of touch.
Whoa.
Admitting all of this is brave and a big deal. No matter who it's for.
You are a lovely lovely person and master's or no master's, i still love your face.
I hope things work out, if not, I'm at least glad that this relationship has allowed you to be free from the prison of lies you built.
<3

Wednesday Sep 26, 2012

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My last two blogs have to do with more that I felt the need to be honest with everyone, not just that one person. This honesty extends from myself to everyone. Now, comes the part of this that I don't understand. I see that the woman I hurt has posted on facebook that she is wondering how she became the bad person for refusing to...
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dearambellina:
I've been reading your blogs and I commend you for your honesty, however late it may be. Swallowing pride is a hard thing to do, but it will set you free.
alkaline:
No, the 2 liars never have admitted to any of their lies. If they had while I still gave a shit, it may have salvaged some sort of trust. Sorry, I didn't mean for it to sound like no one will ever believe in you again once you come clean. With these two, it was me finding things out and being a good enough observer to catch them in lies. And they would be denied every time I brought them up, even the times I had solid proof. One ex used to text other girls and I SAW the messages. He would later delete them and swear I had made up what I'd seen and I was crazy. Really fucks with you.

Knowing that you are totally coming clean to everyone in all this is amazing and you are being so strong. Especially with so many things extending back over such a period of time. I hope you will be able to feel the weight lifted, even if it is heavy for a while.
And while doing it for the people you care so much about, do it just as much for yourself.

Tuesday Sep 25, 2012

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**DISCLAIMER** Biggest lie does not mean that the other two are irrelevant. Biggest simply states the one which took the most time and effort and made all the "littler" lies even harder to keep up and remember. Truly a tangled web.

My previous, blog if you read it dealt with the fact that I have lied. To everyone. I thought in writing that last blog...
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brassbancroft:
One point that I feel obligated to make as a veteran... A truly "dishonorable discharge" can only be issued if you were convicted of a general court martial. So unless you stood before a jury of your military peers and were convicted of a crime in a military court, you are likely confusing the type of discharge that was given to you. If you did in fact have a dishonorable discharge you would not be able to vote or own property in the United States, you would essentially have the equivalent of a felony conviction. DADT was a travesty and I'm sorry that you had to go through anything related to it, but if you really do want to come clean about your past it might be worth properly stating the conditions of your prior military service. Best of luck and I hope coming clean as you have works out for the best for you.
burntsolace:
That took a truck load of guts to post all of that here.

And since none of those three things has ever come in any conversation with me. So you are safe from worrying about any of that in my direction.

Here is my $0.02 worth of advice. Anyone who is going to judge you on who you were, or where you came from, isn't worth your time. I am not particularly proud of where I came from, I did a similar move across the country, in part to escape everyone know where I came from, and being pigeonholed as that person still.

But there comes a point when you have a choice, you can be someone who fits the roles that other people expect you to fit, or you can just be you. It sounds like you are on the second path. And if you need a shoulder to lean on anywhere along the way let me know.

*Sending Hugs*

-Chris

Sunday Sep 23, 2012

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I am a liar, I have lied about things in my past to everyone to escape what my life was. I lied to transplant myself to the life that I want to have lived as opposed to the life I did live.. The life that made and still does make me completely uncomfortable and fearful of someone who should have been my ultimate protector. This...
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elizadoolittle:
<3
Love you whatever
nene:
I understand why. We have walked similar paths through hell, you and I.

<3
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