Cock-blocked by Jesus
OK so I've attempted to jump back into the proverbial dating pool As I've tried to change many aspects of my life recently, I decided it was time to at least try and let someone new in. I'm content with being by myself; I'm not interested in being around people as I have to deal with enough back-stabbing idiots at work and I seem to attract women with serious malfunctions of the mental nature. So a few months back a woman whom normally wouldn't give me the time of day struck a conversation, which began my mind wondering as to what she wanted. I spoke to a couple of people about it, the male put the cock-block on hard, and he talked to her and basically laid my dirt out a silver platter. The female I spoke to about this incident knows this woman fairly well and said she didn't see it as she was "too straight-laced." Ok you've seen my picture so you know what category I fall into anyways it was related back to me that she has a strict policy about not dating anyone at work So with my choice of women I get involved in seared into my head this woman didn't fit the usual cast of dating crazies. I learned long ago that if I look a certain way people basically leave me alone and avoid me, which I greatly appreciate as I have a very low tolerance for ignorant people. Well I talk to this woman a couple of times; I gave her my number in case she happened to be on my side of the bridge and wanted someone to hang out with. She's a unique looking person who caught my attention the first time I saw her, I rarely spoke to her as I knew that we ran in very different social circles. (Little did I know how different!!!) Well she never called and I basically avoided her for a couple of months since we do not work in the same department. Well she had attempted to strike up a conversation a couple of times which I halted at the start. Yes I can be a serious asshole with just the look on my face; I told you I really enjoy my peaceful existence devoid of idiots. Well I cut my hair and now everyone who went out of there way to avoid me feel that they have the right to some face time. As I said I'm trying to make some personal changes as I would like to have someone to sleep next to at night that isn't a complete tool. She sent an email asking about why I hadn't entered in to a drawing, ok like I said I go out of my way to avoid most people, so this intrusion piqued my attention. Trying not to be too much of a jerk I asked her why she was asking, she replied that she was just curious since I had gotten a ticket by default and wanted to make sure I knew I could still win a set of tickets. I used this as my opportunity to talk to her. So that night I wrote a letter basically allowing her to see a side that I keep well hidden and to explain why I am the way I am. So I sent it the next afternoon after agonizing over it most of the day, I really don't want people to see a side that they can take advantage of. So her response was that since I had put a lot of thought into what I wanted to say that she wanted the same consideration. The next day I get the response that she only wanted to be friends and that she had tried to befriend me several times before but found that I was unapproachable since I always looked to be in a bad mood. She suggested that we go out for happy hour sometime, so I took her up on her offer and we went to a sports bar and drank a couple of beers and played some pool as well as going to dinner. We discussed numerous things as well as religion she asked about my "skull bracelet" to which I explained that they are Buddhist Mala beads to which she asked if I was a "Buddhist" and I replied that I am practicing Taoism, to which she asked "You don't believe in Jesus?" WHAT???? I explained that I believed he lived, to which she chose to hear that I don't believe in Jesus and that we had nothing in common. She also compared me to the previous douche bag she dated because of a very few strained similarities and my approach Approach, what approach, I didn't initiate this whole thing. Anyways she insisted that she drive me home after dinner, she text messaged that she had made it home safe and had fun kicking my ass in pool So now I've been cock-blocked because of my personal belief. I hate modern day organized religion, who the fuck are they to dictate how I live because of the way they interpretate a half complete "holy book" compiled by some mid-evil king who choose what stories would be included. Yes I believe there is a Higher Power, yes I believe Jesus existed just as Lao Tzu and Buddha did. Is Jesus my personal savior? No. Here is part of the reason why I do not buy into modern organized religion
THIRTY-EIGHT (TAO THE CHING)
One of subtle universal virtue is not conscious of being virtuous, therefore, he is truly virtuous.
One of partial virtue attempts to live up to an external standard of virtue.
Therefore, he is not truly virtuous.
One of whole virtue does not need to do anything in order to be virtuous, because virtue is the very essence of one's true nature.
But, one of partial virtue believes that something must be done in order to prove that he is virtuous.
Thus, partial virtue becomes prevalent when people fail to follow their own true nature.
Benevolence becomes prevalent when people fail to be naturally kind.
Etiquette becomes prevalent when people fail to be righteous and considerate .
When people find no response with etiquette, the roll up their sleeves and force others to respond to them.
When people stray from the subtle way of universal nature, they can no longer perceive their own true nature.
Thus, they emphasize relative virtue.
When natural virtue is lost, society depends on the doctrine of humanism.
When humanity becomes corrupted, social and religious teachings appear and become powerful forces.
When social and religious teachings become corrupted, what is left behind is the empty shell of superficial ceremonies and artificial etiquette.
When etiquette is emphasized, it is because people lack the simple qualities of fairness and kindness.
This is the starting point of people of confusion.
All of these man-made, partial virtues are merely superficial flowers, a false nature.
When people begin to move away from their own true nature, it is the beginning of hypocrisy.
LAO TZU
Not to mention the current state of pedophilia running rampant through many of the "popular" religions. You can look at so many branches of Christianity and see the dissention. Hell we even have a popular religion based on some crazed half-witted science fiction writers beliefs. Anyways, that is the current state of my dating attempts as I see it the woman and myself will be nothing more than casual acquaintances, which is fine.
OK so I've attempted to jump back into the proverbial dating pool As I've tried to change many aspects of my life recently, I decided it was time to at least try and let someone new in. I'm content with being by myself; I'm not interested in being around people as I have to deal with enough back-stabbing idiots at work and I seem to attract women with serious malfunctions of the mental nature. So a few months back a woman whom normally wouldn't give me the time of day struck a conversation, which began my mind wondering as to what she wanted. I spoke to a couple of people about it, the male put the cock-block on hard, and he talked to her and basically laid my dirt out a silver platter. The female I spoke to about this incident knows this woman fairly well and said she didn't see it as she was "too straight-laced." Ok you've seen my picture so you know what category I fall into anyways it was related back to me that she has a strict policy about not dating anyone at work So with my choice of women I get involved in seared into my head this woman didn't fit the usual cast of dating crazies. I learned long ago that if I look a certain way people basically leave me alone and avoid me, which I greatly appreciate as I have a very low tolerance for ignorant people. Well I talk to this woman a couple of times; I gave her my number in case she happened to be on my side of the bridge and wanted someone to hang out with. She's a unique looking person who caught my attention the first time I saw her, I rarely spoke to her as I knew that we ran in very different social circles. (Little did I know how different!!!) Well she never called and I basically avoided her for a couple of months since we do not work in the same department. Well she had attempted to strike up a conversation a couple of times which I halted at the start. Yes I can be a serious asshole with just the look on my face; I told you I really enjoy my peaceful existence devoid of idiots. Well I cut my hair and now everyone who went out of there way to avoid me feel that they have the right to some face time. As I said I'm trying to make some personal changes as I would like to have someone to sleep next to at night that isn't a complete tool. She sent an email asking about why I hadn't entered in to a drawing, ok like I said I go out of my way to avoid most people, so this intrusion piqued my attention. Trying not to be too much of a jerk I asked her why she was asking, she replied that she was just curious since I had gotten a ticket by default and wanted to make sure I knew I could still win a set of tickets. I used this as my opportunity to talk to her. So that night I wrote a letter basically allowing her to see a side that I keep well hidden and to explain why I am the way I am. So I sent it the next afternoon after agonizing over it most of the day, I really don't want people to see a side that they can take advantage of. So her response was that since I had put a lot of thought into what I wanted to say that she wanted the same consideration. The next day I get the response that she only wanted to be friends and that she had tried to befriend me several times before but found that I was unapproachable since I always looked to be in a bad mood. She suggested that we go out for happy hour sometime, so I took her up on her offer and we went to a sports bar and drank a couple of beers and played some pool as well as going to dinner. We discussed numerous things as well as religion she asked about my "skull bracelet" to which I explained that they are Buddhist Mala beads to which she asked if I was a "Buddhist" and I replied that I am practicing Taoism, to which she asked "You don't believe in Jesus?" WHAT???? I explained that I believed he lived, to which she chose to hear that I don't believe in Jesus and that we had nothing in common. She also compared me to the previous douche bag she dated because of a very few strained similarities and my approach Approach, what approach, I didn't initiate this whole thing. Anyways she insisted that she drive me home after dinner, she text messaged that she had made it home safe and had fun kicking my ass in pool So now I've been cock-blocked because of my personal belief. I hate modern day organized religion, who the fuck are they to dictate how I live because of the way they interpretate a half complete "holy book" compiled by some mid-evil king who choose what stories would be included. Yes I believe there is a Higher Power, yes I believe Jesus existed just as Lao Tzu and Buddha did. Is Jesus my personal savior? No. Here is part of the reason why I do not buy into modern organized religion
THIRTY-EIGHT (TAO THE CHING)
One of subtle universal virtue is not conscious of being virtuous, therefore, he is truly virtuous.
One of partial virtue attempts to live up to an external standard of virtue.
Therefore, he is not truly virtuous.
One of whole virtue does not need to do anything in order to be virtuous, because virtue is the very essence of one's true nature.
But, one of partial virtue believes that something must be done in order to prove that he is virtuous.
Thus, partial virtue becomes prevalent when people fail to follow their own true nature.
Benevolence becomes prevalent when people fail to be naturally kind.
Etiquette becomes prevalent when people fail to be righteous and considerate .
When people find no response with etiquette, the roll up their sleeves and force others to respond to them.
When people stray from the subtle way of universal nature, they can no longer perceive their own true nature.
Thus, they emphasize relative virtue.
When natural virtue is lost, society depends on the doctrine of humanism.
When humanity becomes corrupted, social and religious teachings appear and become powerful forces.
When social and religious teachings become corrupted, what is left behind is the empty shell of superficial ceremonies and artificial etiquette.
When etiquette is emphasized, it is because people lack the simple qualities of fairness and kindness.
This is the starting point of people of confusion.
All of these man-made, partial virtues are merely superficial flowers, a false nature.
When people begin to move away from their own true nature, it is the beginning of hypocrisy.
LAO TZU
Not to mention the current state of pedophilia running rampant through many of the "popular" religions. You can look at so many branches of Christianity and see the dissention. Hell we even have a popular religion based on some crazed half-witted science fiction writers beliefs. Anyways, that is the current state of my dating attempts as I see it the woman and myself will be nothing more than casual acquaintances, which is fine.
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and good luck with the dating!