bloodymic

so much to say yet i dont know what to say....life is so messed up and i am going nowhere with my love... i wish things wouldn't be so difficult... i understand why feelings need to be close to the same in order to have that level of commitment to make it work but it is right there and i can taste it... this sucks so bad. i am in a rutt and i will not get out of it without her... it is not that i am dependent, it is that i have never ever felt this way about anyone, nor even wanted to feel this way about anyone... i dont know why this has to be so hard. I love her, she loves me but is confused and scared now... i need to help her not be scared... what am i gonna do??? i'm dying inside each day she wont love me back................