why.............i dont understand why i get the short end of the stick all the time. Am i not good enough for her....? what is the deal? i dont get it...i know she cares but why cant she just give me her love....she obviously does in a small percentage want to be with me but everyday a different guy gets in the way. why is it that she is so confused? of course i see it so easy to do cause i only want one and dont think of any other. even though i had supposedly slept with someone else and lied. BULLSHIT!!! I am a man of my word and she knows it...but i am the worst boyfriend of all of them...yet i never cheated or beat her or threatened her life....I only tell her how beautiful she is and how great she makes me feel.... Friends is great but I love so much that it is silly to just be friends....of course i will always be there for her but i wish i could be so more....like before but a million times better....isnt it obvious that i am not gonna be like then again? why does it have to be held over my head....the past is the past she says but still thinks that i will ignore her again and be a self centered fuckstick again. why me......I guess i am just friend material to everyone and i dont deserve to be loved or have a real defined relationship.........fuck me!!!
