Well I ll mark today up as a pretty shitty one, the day in its self wasnt really all that bad. Fired and quallified on teh M60 today, a machine gun that hasnt really been used much well Air Force wise mostly since Vietnam but our current weapon the M240B is sucking balls so we are going back to the 60. But thats work really dont like talking about work.
NOpe jsut one small tiny even that kinda took place over the span of the last three days. The biggest things that annoy me the most is one people not calling you back when they say they will, second people not showing up when they say they will. Its one thing if its just a casual aquantance, but when its someone whos suppose to be a good friend that just really gets under my skin. Sadly for me the one person on this base that I actually felt comfortable talking with and opening up to on this base is the one constantly doing it to me. Its killing me, been told by her one numerous occasion your one of my only friends and people I know I can count on. She has a great way of showing it. Tells me I ll call you back real quick or I ll stop by tonight and me being the good friend I always wait up or wait for her to do whatever it is and I m just left there waiting hell still waiting technically.
Another things I dunno its probably just me doubt many people do it but I give people the benifit of the doubt especially alot of the time when i hear that i should do other wise. I ll admit it I hang out with some of the worst people that will hinder caree movement if the right people knew I hung out with them. These people including the "good friend" are some of the most hated in the squadron I got all sorts of warning not to get involved with them when I got here. So naturally I not even trying to I became good friends with all of them and all of them that I hang out with did get bum raps and are probably some of the smartest people in the squadron, lol which is usually what gets them in to and out of trouble.
Moving on forward kinda tying the two of these together is that I have seen the best my friend has to offer in herself I have seen the top poential she has the good person she is, which is the very opposite of what everyone and I relaly do mean everyone says about her. For a good long time that good in her only got greater each passing day she proved beyond the point that she was not what everyone said she was. (Yes and incase you cant tell i do have a big crush on her, shot down and failed but I m not one to let things like that effect a friendship I move on not the first time I ve crashed and burned definatly not the last but a good friend only comes along every so often so you cant lose it casue you hold a grudge cause your ego got bruised) But the past three goddamn daysand a isolated incident here and there have completely shot her down. I know what her potential is and who she is inside, but due to what only I can explain by her new boyfriend coming in to existance I am not getting the side that everyone else has seen, and it hurts more than her shooting me down. Cause isnstead of rejection which is big whoopty do used to it girls and me well lol yeah never really could do the whole asking out deal right. Now I m getting urned left and right by her ignored blown off it stings like a mother fucker, and it seems like shes completly oblivious to the entire thing. Granted up till now I ve kept to the good nice friend deal but she completely left em waiting again the other night and its the last nerve I dont know what to do about it. Left a not "Sorry let you down yet again..... I hope you can forgive me" I dont think I can this time, I ve given her more chances than I would normally because I liked her kept my usual cold nature to things like this in check cause I liked her even after I got shot down. I dont think this matter is out of jelousy which had me concernicus at first thought maybe I m just over reacting cause she has a boyfriend now (who left today which yes did give me a little cruel satifaction) but no I ve havent been acting the way I normally would due to my feeling and maybe I m just now starting to get pushed beyond them cause with anyone else I know I would have been pissed along time ago. Perhaps its bout time she saw the other half of me that most people see when I m not just trying to be the nice guy... granted I am a nice guy when you know me but when you cross that line I get pretty cold to you shes done it to me with out me doing anything but be a good friend I think its only fair if I return the deed for her turning it to a shitty one. Hell if I m lucky it will wake her up and make her see that shes been ignoring the friends that have been there for her.
Fuck I rambler todamn much and lol no one here will probably read it, probably better that way I doubt it makes much sense jsut alot of runons and incomplete thoughts.
-Troubled... lol like thats nothing new, self pitty I buy it in bulk it seems.
-Spider
NOpe jsut one small tiny even that kinda took place over the span of the last three days. The biggest things that annoy me the most is one people not calling you back when they say they will, second people not showing up when they say they will. Its one thing if its just a casual aquantance, but when its someone whos suppose to be a good friend that just really gets under my skin. Sadly for me the one person on this base that I actually felt comfortable talking with and opening up to on this base is the one constantly doing it to me. Its killing me, been told by her one numerous occasion your one of my only friends and people I know I can count on. She has a great way of showing it. Tells me I ll call you back real quick or I ll stop by tonight and me being the good friend I always wait up or wait for her to do whatever it is and I m just left there waiting hell still waiting technically.
Another things I dunno its probably just me doubt many people do it but I give people the benifit of the doubt especially alot of the time when i hear that i should do other wise. I ll admit it I hang out with some of the worst people that will hinder caree movement if the right people knew I hung out with them. These people including the "good friend" are some of the most hated in the squadron I got all sorts of warning not to get involved with them when I got here. So naturally I not even trying to I became good friends with all of them and all of them that I hang out with did get bum raps and are probably some of the smartest people in the squadron, lol which is usually what gets them in to and out of trouble.
Moving on forward kinda tying the two of these together is that I have seen the best my friend has to offer in herself I have seen the top poential she has the good person she is, which is the very opposite of what everyone and I relaly do mean everyone says about her. For a good long time that good in her only got greater each passing day she proved beyond the point that she was not what everyone said she was. (Yes and incase you cant tell i do have a big crush on her, shot down and failed but I m not one to let things like that effect a friendship I move on not the first time I ve crashed and burned definatly not the last but a good friend only comes along every so often so you cant lose it casue you hold a grudge cause your ego got bruised) But the past three goddamn daysand a isolated incident here and there have completely shot her down. I know what her potential is and who she is inside, but due to what only I can explain by her new boyfriend coming in to existance I am not getting the side that everyone else has seen, and it hurts more than her shooting me down. Cause isnstead of rejection which is big whoopty do used to it girls and me well lol yeah never really could do the whole asking out deal right. Now I m getting urned left and right by her ignored blown off it stings like a mother fucker, and it seems like shes completly oblivious to the entire thing. Granted up till now I ve kept to the good nice friend deal but she completely left em waiting again the other night and its the last nerve I dont know what to do about it. Left a not "Sorry let you down yet again..... I hope you can forgive me" I dont think I can this time, I ve given her more chances than I would normally because I liked her kept my usual cold nature to things like this in check cause I liked her even after I got shot down. I dont think this matter is out of jelousy which had me concernicus at first thought maybe I m just over reacting cause she has a boyfriend now (who left today which yes did give me a little cruel satifaction) but no I ve havent been acting the way I normally would due to my feeling and maybe I m just now starting to get pushed beyond them cause with anyone else I know I would have been pissed along time ago. Perhaps its bout time she saw the other half of me that most people see when I m not just trying to be the nice guy... granted I am a nice guy when you know me but when you cross that line I get pretty cold to you shes done it to me with out me doing anything but be a good friend I think its only fair if I return the deed for her turning it to a shitty one. Hell if I m lucky it will wake her up and make her see that shes been ignoring the friends that have been there for her.
Fuck I rambler todamn much and lol no one here will probably read it, probably better that way I doubt it makes much sense jsut alot of runons and incomplete thoughts.
-Troubled... lol like thats nothing new, self pitty I buy it in bulk it seems.
-Spider
Non ho neanche capito cos' che mi hai chiesto precisamente visto che il mio inglese fa abbastanza cagare
Cmq...io ho una Paladina lvl 38 e sto su Crushridge...tu?