So yeah its been forever hasnt it, its been hell on this internet to do shit so sorry but your in for a treat a update. This is going to be a long one so you all better get a soda put on some music and get comfortable cause ealier someone asked a question earlier that got my mind in motion and put me back in a place I havent been i n a while a near mature mindset.
Its sucks kinda being here I used to be smart I used to be mature, hell I used to be told I was very mature for my age now at least in my mind neither istrue anymore. Its what I get for being where I am. security forces has the lowest requirement to get in to the air force. Now I may have gotten high eighties on my ASVAB score which quald me for pretty much any job I wanted in the air force but I made the choice to join this one so even though i am smarter then the requirement but to the rest of the the air force and even to my self lately I might as well gotten that 34 as well. Thats how many of us are treated and how damn near all of us at. I suppose we ask fo rit by acting the way we do, like myself I was very mature but now I work with those who are not and I ve lost that way I acted a bit its still there I think just not "on" I work and play with the immature almost all the time so there for I work and play with them at their level . Sucks lol but I was asked a question that personally i wanted to treat with the maturity it needed and not be the immature bastered I ve been actng like lately, cause other wise I would have said somethign that shouldnt be said and possibly put things in perspective that would just be fucked up or given an opinion that was helpful just bias and dick like. Lol now whether I gave anythign helpful or not I did do my best to shed that different veiw on things and be helpful and hopful what ever happens happens and it the out come is the best one that can occure lol that was a little weird to say without saying more than I should.
Well any way moving on to this past weekend, I went snowboarding...YES! lol it was a great time. Twas myself my good friends Kara and Kevin along side Karas buddy from back home whose stationed here with the army and has also spend the past eternity in the desert and just finnaly got back to his base Robbie and his friend Aaron both pretty kool guys. They passed the kool friends test cause honestly me and kev were worried the guys were going to be dicks like some of the guys Kara, love the girl to death but some of the guy friends we met in the past umm no not kool. lol but no these guys were good guys ...lol i m probably going to get hit later.. Anyway we went up to Austria to snowboard first time for me and kev up there we staied at hostile called the cube pretty kool place for a hostile nothing like the movie lol was pretty trendy in there and very much build to accomidate skiers and boarders. Lol we were also following some other americans up there kara knew one of them...bunch of idiots but they knew where the hostile was so we had to use them to get there. We pretty much for the omst part ignored them except for a few conversations here and there for the rest of the trip.
The first day amazing lol I was boarding all day in a t-shirt awesome stuff. Hit pretty much all the runs, cat hit the jumps and aaron did to I m pretty sure lol that and he would haul ass way a head of us which was his loss cause we keptlosing him cause of it. I was a wuss al day and didnt hit the jump yeah boo to me I bitched out lol its been a while ok I just wasnt feeling it that day I did make one half ass run at the half pipe didnt really do anything much more then basic on that sad attempt though. We were on the the trail for most of the day didnt do too mcuh off trail running that and the snow was pretty mushy off trail that day due to the warmth. lol so its the end of a excellent day of runs and we have to make it back to the hostile, there two ways to do this one take the gondala back down almost to the hostil and miss out on some more boarding or take another rought that takes you across to one mountain up to another then down a long run to the hostile. Well one prob lol well kinda a problem you ahve to take tbars up to one part, those things are made for skiers not boarders.....
Ok so as you imagine that could lead to some complications now think hard I may have snowboarded a crap load ut this really is only my second season and only my first full season boarding so me being a noob havent done tbars it was explained to me and I knew what I needed to do but lol it didnt happend as well as it was stated. So as we are going up about a quarter of the way up my board catches edge and bam down I go and me being the genius that I am didnt strap in my other foot so it was pretty much impossible for me to swing the board around so I could get my ass back up right. So now I m being dragger up the mountain on my back... which was actually going well I had a good grip on the bar and wasnt very straining at all to slide up the mountain until I hit another bump and there goes the tbar up over my head and now the dragging is no longer funny and easy its a damn pain in the ass and my arms feel like they might as well rip off. Ok so maybe thats a little bit of an over statement but none the less i wast going to make it the rest of the way at this point though I am about half way up the mountain, so I let loose of the damn tbar and get up. From this point aaron tells me to grab on to his but I ve already decided nope I can make it from where I am to where I need to be and say nope and yell ahead that I ll meet them there...which later I learn wasnt heard at all. Aaron jumps off the bars with me and I tell him my plan and we head off to the next lift, which we made it to with pretty much ease. lol which was kinda funny cause the rest of them waited damn near forever and almost missed the last ride up waiting for us sorry guys lol but you should have known better I always find my way. The rest of the day was clear sailing down the mountain with some great views and even better weather, we even sat and enjoied it for a bit on the last leg of the run. Then down to the hostile we went.
The night was nothing too grand we were for the most part beat. One of the guys in the other group told his grand tail of how he dislocated is arm first to me and kev where he implied that his right shoulder popled him in the face and was dislocated and then later to kara where he then made motion to his left shoulder saying it was dislocated. Also in both tails saying that he couldnt move it due to the injury but was very clearly moving both arms....such great stories drunks can spin and yes this man was drunk apperently had started around 2 pm and it was now arond 6 or 7. The drunken fest would incure through out the night till way way early in the morning, I can vouch for it cause it kept me awake for most of the night. we all hit the beds fairly early compared to our drunken breatheren after a good long while of just sitting and talking which was nice I dont do that much any more just sit with friends and talk... well yes but not like this it felt like different kind of talkngthen the usual jabbering we usually do.
Once morning arrived we relaxed for a bit and didnt head up for the mountian till around 10am. the air was a bit colder then the day prior but it was still a great day, wore a long sleeve shirt under my tshirt, so I still wasnt waring a coat. We hit the first run again with the jumps and I actually had some balls today was feeling abit more confident in my skills so I hit the jump a couple times, nothing real grand just up then down lol nothing xgames worthy. We also began to wonder off trail a little. had lunch them moved to the other side of the mountain thats were the fun began. The day prior when we went to the other side we had to cross some roads lol kara scratched up her board pretty good by boarding across the roads... shes got a broken wrist so taking the board off is a pain so its a bit understanable when the rest of us it takes half the time one cuse we have stepin/click in binding on out boards and skies and she has to deal with the regular bindings and a broken wrist. So today we went the other way the way ... or at least close to the way kev took the day before where he didnt have to cross the roads. But somewhere along the way we got side tracked and we were deep in the woods and no where near the trail and for a little bit getting farther away from where we wanted to be. So we are diping and diving and dodging our way threw the woods. I hit a tree lol go tthe cuts to prove it... but I wasnt the only one Kara came barrelling through one section of the woods down and up a lil dip and then fell on the edge of this ginormous hole in the ground around a tree/cave deal she had no clue about cause she went down back/head first but me and aaron ahead of her instantly go ohh shit. I ve already got my board off cause I was a dork and was sick of hitting trees so I was running my path, so I jump behind her so she doesnt go head first in to the pit. I start helping her sit up, when she just says take off my bindig so i go reach for the binding get a strap n half loose when my footing goes and I slide waste deep in the pit... she of course laughs at me.... I climb my ass back up this time kev shows up and he helps her sit back up from up top, he starts to pull her back up while I kept her board from sliding her back down.... after she was back up I slid down the pit again lol but climbed my ass out after that. . We board around lost a lil longer and eventually come to some tracks that we follow to a road, then we followed the road that eventually lead up back to the trail. We had to go under the trail and through a neighborhood to get back on it but we did make it back to it. Finnaly back on the other side we seriously had a blast going everywhere except on the known trails we great even with out fresh powder. We spent pretty much the rest of the day on that side wondering where most did not.
So now we have to head back to the other side and back to the hostile. lolthen there the spot where I make my genius idea... off trail was great all day.. run back to the gondala not really that exciting plus tbars boo. The map showed a dotted line through the woods to the gondala looked like a pretty feasible ride... I planned on just doing on my own let the others go the way we took the day prior. But no they wanted to tag along... so we started to head there but everyone except me and kev headed down too fast cause we werent really sure where the dotted line was in the real world so me and cat started to take a different route then the rest of them already and for a long while we were in two groups.... I thoguht that the other group would just go on with the route fromt he day before cause besides when all this started I told them they should follow me anyway. So me and cat are going through and around tree down lil cliffs and everything we were actually enjoying it even though the more we went the more dese the woods got and the more ulikely thisroute seemed to be. There were alot of parts where wlaking was the only option and afew parts where it looked grim. So about half wa deep in the woods guess who we hear the other group lol some how they managed to make it near us so we waited up a bit and yelled abit and eventually we were all one big happy lol or "happy" group. The route was insane trees every where near collisions almost every time we tried to ride, each of us had to have lost at least two lives. But we were getting closer, just as we are about to reach the gondala we meet a tiny lil obsicale... a fucking river. But fortunatly for us there was a nive little section of the river still bridged by snow the bridge was about a foot wide everyone made it across then I went lol and yay for me I m the one with the near trip into the river. While I was taking my route down to the lil bridge my board got sucked in to one of the previous groves and it set me off crouse just evnough to jsut nearly miss the side of the bridge and off in to the water. After the bridge we had to unstrap and walk to the trail. We couldn have timed i more perfect however we made it to the lift minutes before they would have shut them down and we would have been sutck. The last of the run was the same as before as wit was all easy sailing to the end of the day. Not much more to say on the trip though rest of it was just nice chilling and relaxing.
Now onto other ramblings and blatherings. I ve noticed that I dont really talk to people anymore, mean I tlak to peopl but I dont really talk with anyone. I ve been tolk three times by people that have known me for over a year now that, they dont really know me at all. I really have closed off pretty much most of my life to those around me in this part of my life. I would say that out of all the people I know here only a couple know anything about my life prior to the militay and even those people only know a couple of things. Its kida crazy I know all these people but none of them actually know me. Back home I ve got my buddies that know me as well as I know them cause hell half the shit we have all been through together or they were the guys that I talked to about shit or them with me now, I ve got the friends I guess but none of them I ever really talk to about shit other than the shit here. It all rally one about the job or somethign going on about the job or some shit going on around here. Nothign really of the past ever or of our histories. I dunno I find it kinda weird lately how none of really know eacho ther yet our lives could be dependent on one another... well from my point of veiw there are the some that have made the transition better and have those friends but for me its just different I have never trusted easily and I have never shared easily and here I just havent found the right people to talk with or the right ones that will listen as well as talk and I listen I guess. Kraziness surrounded yet alone.
...hm.. ohh yeah lol tis word .. ths word is just so insulting.. aldultorous whore... I m sure thats spelt wrong but you get it. Was talking with one person and she said another peroson I knwo get called that. Talk about a bitch of a pair of words I dunno maybe to someo f you that doesnt seem to bad but when it first hit my ears, jaw was just damn dropped. I ve said some mean shit and I have put some odd combination of words to gether to insult but this pair right there if i was a girl getting called that I would just stop and cry it just such a fucked up combination of words on their ownd they are bad but together damn. Also the girl it was directed to I kinda know her not really the best but I have talked with her and knwo the background behind things and damn its just cruel cause shes a pretty sweet gal and this is just such a stong word to be calling her when thigns arnt even warrenting that... well like I said earlier I work with the immaturest people in the air force so really this is what i should expect. Thing here are just like high school same bull shit he said she said drama that I hate then. lol probably why I stay disconnected from people here just like i did with most in high school cause I dont care for the immature bull shit dramma they all try and dig up I ve got more improtant things to waste my time on lol like typing out a giant rant about it lol but you if you got half a mind you ll understand what I mean by all of this and if not then lol guess what....
laters
-Spider
Its sucks kinda being here I used to be smart I used to be mature, hell I used to be told I was very mature for my age now at least in my mind neither istrue anymore. Its what I get for being where I am. security forces has the lowest requirement to get in to the air force. Now I may have gotten high eighties on my ASVAB score which quald me for pretty much any job I wanted in the air force but I made the choice to join this one so even though i am smarter then the requirement but to the rest of the the air force and even to my self lately I might as well gotten that 34 as well. Thats how many of us are treated and how damn near all of us at. I suppose we ask fo rit by acting the way we do, like myself I was very mature but now I work with those who are not and I ve lost that way I acted a bit its still there I think just not "on" I work and play with the immature almost all the time so there for I work and play with them at their level . Sucks lol but I was asked a question that personally i wanted to treat with the maturity it needed and not be the immature bastered I ve been actng like lately, cause other wise I would have said somethign that shouldnt be said and possibly put things in perspective that would just be fucked up or given an opinion that was helpful just bias and dick like. Lol now whether I gave anythign helpful or not I did do my best to shed that different veiw on things and be helpful and hopful what ever happens happens and it the out come is the best one that can occure lol that was a little weird to say without saying more than I should.
Well any way moving on to this past weekend, I went snowboarding...YES! lol it was a great time. Twas myself my good friends Kara and Kevin along side Karas buddy from back home whose stationed here with the army and has also spend the past eternity in the desert and just finnaly got back to his base Robbie and his friend Aaron both pretty kool guys. They passed the kool friends test cause honestly me and kev were worried the guys were going to be dicks like some of the guys Kara, love the girl to death but some of the guy friends we met in the past umm no not kool. lol but no these guys were good guys ...lol i m probably going to get hit later.. Anyway we went up to Austria to snowboard first time for me and kev up there we staied at hostile called the cube pretty kool place for a hostile nothing like the movie lol was pretty trendy in there and very much build to accomidate skiers and boarders. Lol we were also following some other americans up there kara knew one of them...bunch of idiots but they knew where the hostile was so we had to use them to get there. We pretty much for the omst part ignored them except for a few conversations here and there for the rest of the trip.
The first day amazing lol I was boarding all day in a t-shirt awesome stuff. Hit pretty much all the runs, cat hit the jumps and aaron did to I m pretty sure lol that and he would haul ass way a head of us which was his loss cause we keptlosing him cause of it. I was a wuss al day and didnt hit the jump yeah boo to me I bitched out lol its been a while ok I just wasnt feeling it that day I did make one half ass run at the half pipe didnt really do anything much more then basic on that sad attempt though. We were on the the trail for most of the day didnt do too mcuh off trail running that and the snow was pretty mushy off trail that day due to the warmth. lol so its the end of a excellent day of runs and we have to make it back to the hostile, there two ways to do this one take the gondala back down almost to the hostil and miss out on some more boarding or take another rought that takes you across to one mountain up to another then down a long run to the hostile. Well one prob lol well kinda a problem you ahve to take tbars up to one part, those things are made for skiers not boarders.....
Ok so as you imagine that could lead to some complications now think hard I may have snowboarded a crap load ut this really is only my second season and only my first full season boarding so me being a noob havent done tbars it was explained to me and I knew what I needed to do but lol it didnt happend as well as it was stated. So as we are going up about a quarter of the way up my board catches edge and bam down I go and me being the genius that I am didnt strap in my other foot so it was pretty much impossible for me to swing the board around so I could get my ass back up right. So now I m being dragger up the mountain on my back... which was actually going well I had a good grip on the bar and wasnt very straining at all to slide up the mountain until I hit another bump and there goes the tbar up over my head and now the dragging is no longer funny and easy its a damn pain in the ass and my arms feel like they might as well rip off. Ok so maybe thats a little bit of an over statement but none the less i wast going to make it the rest of the way at this point though I am about half way up the mountain, so I let loose of the damn tbar and get up. From this point aaron tells me to grab on to his but I ve already decided nope I can make it from where I am to where I need to be and say nope and yell ahead that I ll meet them there...which later I learn wasnt heard at all. Aaron jumps off the bars with me and I tell him my plan and we head off to the next lift, which we made it to with pretty much ease. lol which was kinda funny cause the rest of them waited damn near forever and almost missed the last ride up waiting for us sorry guys lol but you should have known better I always find my way. The rest of the day was clear sailing down the mountain with some great views and even better weather, we even sat and enjoied it for a bit on the last leg of the run. Then down to the hostile we went.
The night was nothing too grand we were for the most part beat. One of the guys in the other group told his grand tail of how he dislocated is arm first to me and kev where he implied that his right shoulder popled him in the face and was dislocated and then later to kara where he then made motion to his left shoulder saying it was dislocated. Also in both tails saying that he couldnt move it due to the injury but was very clearly moving both arms....such great stories drunks can spin and yes this man was drunk apperently had started around 2 pm and it was now arond 6 or 7. The drunken fest would incure through out the night till way way early in the morning, I can vouch for it cause it kept me awake for most of the night. we all hit the beds fairly early compared to our drunken breatheren after a good long while of just sitting and talking which was nice I dont do that much any more just sit with friends and talk... well yes but not like this it felt like different kind of talkngthen the usual jabbering we usually do.
Once morning arrived we relaxed for a bit and didnt head up for the mountian till around 10am. the air was a bit colder then the day prior but it was still a great day, wore a long sleeve shirt under my tshirt, so I still wasnt waring a coat. We hit the first run again with the jumps and I actually had some balls today was feeling abit more confident in my skills so I hit the jump a couple times, nothing real grand just up then down lol nothing xgames worthy. We also began to wonder off trail a little. had lunch them moved to the other side of the mountain thats were the fun began. The day prior when we went to the other side we had to cross some roads lol kara scratched up her board pretty good by boarding across the roads... shes got a broken wrist so taking the board off is a pain so its a bit understanable when the rest of us it takes half the time one cuse we have stepin/click in binding on out boards and skies and she has to deal with the regular bindings and a broken wrist. So today we went the other way the way ... or at least close to the way kev took the day before where he didnt have to cross the roads. But somewhere along the way we got side tracked and we were deep in the woods and no where near the trail and for a little bit getting farther away from where we wanted to be. So we are diping and diving and dodging our way threw the woods. I hit a tree lol go tthe cuts to prove it... but I wasnt the only one Kara came barrelling through one section of the woods down and up a lil dip and then fell on the edge of this ginormous hole in the ground around a tree/cave deal she had no clue about cause she went down back/head first but me and aaron ahead of her instantly go ohh shit. I ve already got my board off cause I was a dork and was sick of hitting trees so I was running my path, so I jump behind her so she doesnt go head first in to the pit. I start helping her sit up, when she just says take off my bindig so i go reach for the binding get a strap n half loose when my footing goes and I slide waste deep in the pit... she of course laughs at me.... I climb my ass back up this time kev shows up and he helps her sit back up from up top, he starts to pull her back up while I kept her board from sliding her back down.... after she was back up I slid down the pit again lol but climbed my ass out after that. . We board around lost a lil longer and eventually come to some tracks that we follow to a road, then we followed the road that eventually lead up back to the trail. We had to go under the trail and through a neighborhood to get back on it but we did make it back to it. Finnaly back on the other side we seriously had a blast going everywhere except on the known trails we great even with out fresh powder. We spent pretty much the rest of the day on that side wondering where most did not.
So now we have to head back to the other side and back to the hostile. lolthen there the spot where I make my genius idea... off trail was great all day.. run back to the gondala not really that exciting plus tbars boo. The map showed a dotted line through the woods to the gondala looked like a pretty feasible ride... I planned on just doing on my own let the others go the way we took the day prior. But no they wanted to tag along... so we started to head there but everyone except me and kev headed down too fast cause we werent really sure where the dotted line was in the real world so me and cat started to take a different route then the rest of them already and for a long while we were in two groups.... I thoguht that the other group would just go on with the route fromt he day before cause besides when all this started I told them they should follow me anyway. So me and cat are going through and around tree down lil cliffs and everything we were actually enjoying it even though the more we went the more dese the woods got and the more ulikely thisroute seemed to be. There were alot of parts where wlaking was the only option and afew parts where it looked grim. So about half wa deep in the woods guess who we hear the other group lol some how they managed to make it near us so we waited up a bit and yelled abit and eventually we were all one big happy lol or "happy" group. The route was insane trees every where near collisions almost every time we tried to ride, each of us had to have lost at least two lives. But we were getting closer, just as we are about to reach the gondala we meet a tiny lil obsicale... a fucking river. But fortunatly for us there was a nive little section of the river still bridged by snow the bridge was about a foot wide everyone made it across then I went lol and yay for me I m the one with the near trip into the river. While I was taking my route down to the lil bridge my board got sucked in to one of the previous groves and it set me off crouse just evnough to jsut nearly miss the side of the bridge and off in to the water. After the bridge we had to unstrap and walk to the trail. We couldn have timed i more perfect however we made it to the lift minutes before they would have shut them down and we would have been sutck. The last of the run was the same as before as wit was all easy sailing to the end of the day. Not much more to say on the trip though rest of it was just nice chilling and relaxing.
Now onto other ramblings and blatherings. I ve noticed that I dont really talk to people anymore, mean I tlak to peopl but I dont really talk with anyone. I ve been tolk three times by people that have known me for over a year now that, they dont really know me at all. I really have closed off pretty much most of my life to those around me in this part of my life. I would say that out of all the people I know here only a couple know anything about my life prior to the militay and even those people only know a couple of things. Its kida crazy I know all these people but none of them actually know me. Back home I ve got my buddies that know me as well as I know them cause hell half the shit we have all been through together or they were the guys that I talked to about shit or them with me now, I ve got the friends I guess but none of them I ever really talk to about shit other than the shit here. It all rally one about the job or somethign going on about the job or some shit going on around here. Nothign really of the past ever or of our histories. I dunno I find it kinda weird lately how none of really know eacho ther yet our lives could be dependent on one another... well from my point of veiw there are the some that have made the transition better and have those friends but for me its just different I have never trusted easily and I have never shared easily and here I just havent found the right people to talk with or the right ones that will listen as well as talk and I listen I guess. Kraziness surrounded yet alone.
...hm.. ohh yeah lol tis word .. ths word is just so insulting.. aldultorous whore... I m sure thats spelt wrong but you get it. Was talking with one person and she said another peroson I knwo get called that. Talk about a bitch of a pair of words I dunno maybe to someo f you that doesnt seem to bad but when it first hit my ears, jaw was just damn dropped. I ve said some mean shit and I have put some odd combination of words to gether to insult but this pair right there if i was a girl getting called that I would just stop and cry it just such a fucked up combination of words on their ownd they are bad but together damn. Also the girl it was directed to I kinda know her not really the best but I have talked with her and knwo the background behind things and damn its just cruel cause shes a pretty sweet gal and this is just such a stong word to be calling her when thigns arnt even warrenting that... well like I said earlier I work with the immaturest people in the air force so really this is what i should expect. Thing here are just like high school same bull shit he said she said drama that I hate then. lol probably why I stay disconnected from people here just like i did with most in high school cause I dont care for the immature bull shit dramma they all try and dig up I ve got more improtant things to waste my time on lol like typing out a giant rant about it lol but you if you got half a mind you ll understand what I mean by all of this and if not then lol guess what....
laters
-Spider
nexus:
Thanks for the comment. I really appreciate it, and it helps me feel a bit more like I'm not a crazy person. Haha. Art is difficult sometimes, isn't it?
elvira:
jeahjeah totally right man!!