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ok so its been awhile since i posted a blog but im doing good. i had me a beautiful lil girl who is the world to me. i love her wit all my heart. so time is tight right now but im trying to make room for every one. so wish me luck an ill be blogging soon again.
faye:
Added you to msn. : )
lewhitelines:
Awww I'm so glad you're doing well. I miss your blogs and your face....frown Get a cam dammit! or like come to Colorado so I can rape you. <3
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LIFE FADES AWAY TO DARKNESS.



I sit here alone in my room,
it has so many diff colors that fade away.
each color identifing a memory in my life past, present, an future.
every night i sit here an watch a diff color fade away lost for ever.
as they fade away i can feel apart of me fade also never to return.
im always...
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faye:
haha, did you just ask me to marry you? *giggles

I'm sorry, I'm not deep enough to comment on poetry. Not that I'm a flake, it just...always seems to mean something different to me than it does to other people or to the writer and I end up looking like a dork. *shrugs - I'm totally one of those people who will BURST out laughing when no one else thinks shit is funny.
kas:
hi! biggrin
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FRIEND OR FO ??????



how do you know if a friend is really a friend?

is there a check list you have to go through an check off things they do or cant do for you?

does it really matter what people think when you bring ur friends to ur familys / girl or boy friends house?

how do u really know if a friends is true...
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nihly:
I quit talking til you blogged something new, and less sad, so that's why I've disappeared. Plus if you read MY stuff, you'll see I have been busy and you don't leave comments for me to know that you're at all interested in keeping up communications. so maybe if you are reading them, please do. or i'll just assume what I just stated and that's that. I want to know who my friends are too, and they should take interest. Not all one-sided...i guess this will have to do (as a less sad post):

I'm sorry 'bout your friends hunnie. maybe time to move on and make some new ones.

BUT here's what I have learned:

Friends can be deceptive, and stab you in the back. Proving your whole trust in them, everything you had was a fraud. Leave those people, and never look back. Friends can disappoint you, and friends can talk crap about you when you're not around. But ultimately, if they love you, there will be apologies, fogiveness. If you are there for them at their toughest moments, be there and just be there and expect nothing in return. When they come in and rescue you at your toughest moments, the ones where you're at your lowest, and they try their hardest to offer support, then yes, you can trust you have a best friend. People change, and some aren't going to be lifelong like you expected. But there are so many people in this world, you next best bud might be right around the corner. Just talk to people and understand, that they have struggles too, and sometimes when thier's are too big they get blinded to what you're going through, and they just don't have being the best friend they can be to you high on their priority list, you get crowded out. And maybe at some points, they take shit out on you that you didn't deserve, then get angry and defensive because they don't know how to express the fact that they know they hurt you and they are sorry. But friendship isn't about keeping score, of who did what to whom and how bad it was, no. It is about trust, and sometimes if trust is broken, at those pivitol moments, it is revealed who your REAL friends are. They are the ones who you would let do things to you, you would never accept from you greatest enemies, but you would still forgive them. And we are all out for ourselves ultimately, but really all friendship comes down to is love. and honesty. So ya, you will be tested and you'll be the judge, at the end of things. But that's good, you decide.

Trust yourself. Take care of you first and foremost, the rest will all fall into place.

TTY SOON HUN! hope you're getting yourself happier...

NIHLY kiss
rowe:
Like my mother always told me, consider yourself lucky if you find ONE true friend within a life time.. they are a rarity and something to truly charish and you have to go through a lot of crap to find that person..

Thanks for the add. kiss
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RUN AWAY
Scared and cold,
frist night on the streets,
your body hurts,
from your head to ur feet,

you miss school,
not the work - it's the friends,
thinking what you'll say,
when they ask you where you been,

gotta dollar. fifty,
every penny gotta spend,
make a wrong move ... Boom,
your life comes to an end.

Daniel, 16, street kid

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burmilla:
hey cat man smile
nihly:
blood, post something nice for once pretty please...ps, my profile is lonely. if you read it, please comment, im just not on msn as much these days, so talk to me here if you can k?
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I think im going to die
I think im going to go
This is my last good bye
Slice my neck hope to bleed wiggle an jerk
Numbness set's in
Body tingles
No felling in feet
Every heart beat is one less berth
Eyes are heavy
Thoughts are hazy
What to think
Might of become me
Darkness is falling fast
Only one more time...
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lotusangel:
First off that was a very good poem, except for one thing. all these girls are right. everyone has been through their share of pain, tragedy, whatever the case may be. we all hurt. the key to life is to pick yourself back up from that pain, learn from that hurt, and keep moving. i don't know what you are going through but i do know that i understand that empty pain that you feel will never be filled. so just take a look around, see that people DO care. wether they know you or not, we all care!

i hope you are feeling better soon! biggrin


miss_kytn:
hey whats up?

♥♥
Kytn
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Tears fall from my eyes to behold tha warm feel that swim's in thy soul,

For those who behold there soul in thy hands ask to be taken whole in loving soul,

For i shall not cry to show only my bare naked soul,

For i shall never lie,

I lay my soul apond your hands to show that you have my dreams an...
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lewhitelines:
Finally a poem that doesn't make me feel sad. biggrin You had better play me my song tonight or I'm wearing make-up on our wedding day! biggrin Love ya!

P.S. I wanna grow old with you. kiss
arch:
hey man nic poem i can get it publishied if you like
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wrote at 4:16 am


as i sit in a darken room,
i start to wounder to thy self,
why am i letting my self live to be walked on an hurt,
im at the crossroad's pounding weather to live or die,
no were to go cause even thy satin,
would not open thee gates of soulless hell,


as i hold a broken mirror...
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nihly:
you won't play my games...?

wake up babycakes

life's not all bad. stick around just a lil bit longer you'll see

*hugs*hugs*hugs
cattra:
hey there smile how goes?
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ok every one just to start this off.

i got a new job working at the airport an on a cruise ship. i am so happy.

for those of you that dont know i am going to be a daddy in sept 6. im not wit the mom she is a two face bitch that cheated on me 2 weeks after we found out that...
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sevenminutes:
congrats on your new job. smile smile smile
lewhitelines:
YAY!!!!!!!!!!! I had that song stuck in my head ALL day. I was singing it to my niece. Thanks love
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Cut

Slit My Wrists,

Hope To Die,

Bleed So Much,

Start To Cry,

Mail My Friends,

Tell Them So,

I Loved Them Much,

But I Must Go.

I've Waited Long,

I Tried To Stay,

I Cried Too Much,

Beared Too Much Pain.

I Slit My Wrists,

I Cut My Throat,

I Cannot Breathe,

I Told Mommy So.

She Said That It Was Just A...
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nihly:
sending happiness vibes.

or do you need me to send you another sad poem. We can have a competition! Its on:

this is cuz i'm a relationship fuck up:

Hurt Has a Name and a Face

I'm so sorry I keep saying sorry
It's just that I feel like a constant screw up.
Who knew I was programmed this way?
I keep licking the salt from the wounds I've caused you-
This saline diet is just sensational.
Maybe you could forgive me
Since I do it so sweetly, and who can resist
Such charming pouts and beautiful tears?
That's right, cut open those stitches
Let me reside amongst your insides
Until the burning gets too much
It's worth it, promise.
I'll fix you baby,
Just let me destroy you first.
lewhitelines:
Hmmm you said I was going to love this blog but I'm sitting here reading it and I'm just plain sad. Although gloomy it's beautifully put, I love your style. It reminds me of myself. Oh! I'm going to send you that poem today and take some photos too I think.

P.S.

I wanna grow old with you. blush
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hatred fills up the household
as fear escapes through each breath
the sounds of yelling and screaming
force me to worship & envy death

i close my eyes in hope
that perhaps it may disappear
but no matter how much i try
the visions remain loud & clear

the bruises on her face
resemble much like mine
the inner pain will remain
i know ill never be...
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nihly:
I hope that is not personal experience....i hope for your sake

now here's mine: (cuz i like poetry too)

Picture Perfect

Could you change your name and assume a new identity?
Maybe one that's not so sad this time.
Come on girl and wipe those shadows from your eyes.
Don't think I can't see you
Squirming in your shirt
Tugging cover over
Nasty fractures and hurts.

And yeah,
I think you've got the right idea.
A little cloth could do the trick.
Just try a little harder, pumpkin.
You haven't reached the part
Where I'm convinced of it.

Keep all those troubles concealed,
Flash me that dimpled daddy's girl smile.
Now laugh a little harder, please.
Devastation's out of style.

It doesn't matter you look a perfect truth,
Suck up those problems, hold up your chin.
The only thing that matters to me
Is what's seen,
not what's in.

I'd ask all your secrets and stories
But looks like no fun ones are left.
Just saves me time, really.
I'll just eat you with my eyes instead.

More to come...


purrrgatori:
thanks for the request. i really like your poetry...
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THE SUN DISAPPEARS



The sun disappears
Dark covers light

You whispered in my ear
"Everything will be fine"

Sunlight in my eyes
Birds sing of tomorrow

A cold body lies
A heart full of sorrow

For so long
You were at my side

Now you're gone
I'm left to cry

My cheeks are black
Stained with tears

I'm going back
Remember the...
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ataraxis1:
Did you write this?

Nice work, just sad. wink
lewhitelines:
It's lovely. Poetry is my escape from everything. It helps me calm down ya know Anyway your poem was amazing and so are you. MUAH.
Love, Mon biggrin
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F.T.W

As the tears keep flowing
slowly but fast down my cheek
I cannot beileve wat just happened
i can barely speak

You were so nice
and made me smile
But thats not what u wanted
you were lyign all the while

Gimme a sec babe
you said that with a grin
But deep in your heart was different plans
something that came...
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blood_drips_slow:
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