-- - -- im scared to find out what beliefs im actually convinced of--- evidently one of them has to do with fear of failure or i wouldn't say "scared" .. it should be "interested"-- i am interested to see what beliefs i'll actually end up believing -- will i believe in regret and will i believe in success and failure? --
i turned down the grant officially today-- and decided to definitely not finish school at byu. I feel more curious about these decisions than assertive and directed. i wonder if i can convince myself of "my own" values...
theres a scripture in the old testament that says something along the lines of : teach a child in the ways of the lord and when he is older, he will not part -----
ive never been a supporter of rebellion-- it's always seemed like a self defeating strategy.. and identity based on oposition is ----blank. so we make our ready made identities -but-how do we assert ourselves? our lives are already saturated with structures weve come to learn as natural and definite- things my parents taught- things i picked up from tv -
i am pretty sure i will never crave a big mac.
i turned down the grant officially today-- and decided to definitely not finish school at byu. I feel more curious about these decisions than assertive and directed. i wonder if i can convince myself of "my own" values...
theres a scripture in the old testament that says something along the lines of : teach a child in the ways of the lord and when he is older, he will not part -----
ive never been a supporter of rebellion-- it's always seemed like a self defeating strategy.. and identity based on oposition is ----blank. so we make our ready made identities -but-how do we assert ourselves? our lives are already saturated with structures weve come to learn as natural and definite- things my parents taught- things i picked up from tv -
i am pretty sure i will never crave a big mac.
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are you who i think you are? it's nice to meet you!
i feel like i know you already from the stories....
you are talking about godard's breathless, i presume. were you the one talking about the french new wave the other night? i had a class about that in college. cool.
the amazing thing about our brains is that we can "unlearn" anything that has been programmed into us, and replace it with that which will make us happy/fulfilled/content/healthy. taking a better path for yourself is not rebellion, it's just, simply, taking a better path for yourself.
see ya 'round!