I work second shift sometimes, 1-11 p.m. usually, then get home at around midnight. When I get home, I would think that I would be tired. Sort of but, not really. I'm wired to the point where I'm not sleepy tired, but I don't have the motivation to do anything constructive. I've always been a night owl and in my, ahem, younger days, meeting up with friends at a late hour for a beer or other adventures until the sun started to rise were commonplace. This doesn't happen anymore. So basically I sit here, put on the television for some background noise then hit the internets. By the time I catch up on what I've missed for the past twelve hours I start at the beginning again. Problem is, since it's 2 a.m. by the time this happens there's really nothing new since last time I made the rounds. At this point since I've traveled the distance of my internet world, I start traveling out into the my internet world's solar system. I start reading about things that I really don't concern myself with in my daily life. It always begins with those links on the local news websites that aren't really news but celebrity gossip articles. '10 celebrities you didn't know were Scientologists' and other things of that nature, then before I know it, I've wasted away hours of my life reading about Ryan Reynold's dating history or 'Foods that are supposedly good for you but are really killing you '. I know I should try to go to sleep, but it just doesn't happen. If I do try, I just end up staring at the ceiling or the inside of my eyelids, mind going in a hundred different directions until I start to hear the birds chirping outside. At this point my mental exhaustion is the only thing that brings me to sleep. Maybe I'm just afraid I'll miss something earth shattering if I sleep (hasn't happened yet) or maybe I just need to find something to focus my mental energy to help me call it a night easier. Maybe it's just the way I'm programmed and there's nothing I can do about it. All I know is the internet is a boring place in the silence of the night.
