Sadly not much has happened over the past week to report. I'm to fuckin' broke to do anything, so Tuesday I went to an acoustic show with no cover charge, and decided to be very anti-social, to Jana's disappointment. Rather than sit with her and her friends from H.S. December and I sat at our own table, and just chilled out to the sets. Very mellow. Thursday Jana was really upset, so I spent the night at her place to help calm her down and help her realx. Gave her a back rub before we climbed into bed, and stayed up till about 4 just holding her to keep her warm and relaxed. She's got Mono, so she's been pretty under the weather. It's getting harder and harder to stay on the path she and I have set for ourselves. I'm wanting more, and she's to scared to go for more. And I know if I say anything it will scare her off and she'll run. So I've just got to hold back and wait to see what comes of this. Which really sux! I'm just so confused. Fuck it....Rum and Weed will fix that problem tonight!
Tonight she and I went and saw my buddy Jeff's band Insidious play at the underground. Not really my type of music but it was still good. I'm more into punk, rather that the thrash/speed metal, but what the hell. Haven't hung out with Jeff for a while so it was pretty good times. After their set she and I left, and headed our seperate ways. Origiinally she was gonna make an appearance at Crack Alley for a B-day and I was gonna wait outside for her (as I HATE the alley) then we were gonna head back to her place. That didn't happen. Instead she went home to go to bed, and I came home to drink alone. 'Cause I'm just that fuckin' "cool". Tonight was prolly the last night I'll see her until Tuesday or Wednesday. She's hanging out with a friend tomorrow, and I'm writing my test for my Class 6 learners. She'll be in bed early because she's got to head up to Edmonton sunday morning for the Social Code show then monday she's in Grande Prairie for the S.C. show there. So I'll hopefully see her tuesday night if I manage to make it to her Calgary show. Otherwise, maybe wednesday if she's able to pick me up while my truck is in the shop. Who knows.
But now I think it's time for a bong hit or 6....because I'm all out of Rum.
Hope I'm able to sort all this shit out soon...it's really starting to take a toll on me.
Tonight she and I went and saw my buddy Jeff's band Insidious play at the underground. Not really my type of music but it was still good. I'm more into punk, rather that the thrash/speed metal, but what the hell. Haven't hung out with Jeff for a while so it was pretty good times. After their set she and I left, and headed our seperate ways. Origiinally she was gonna make an appearance at Crack Alley for a B-day and I was gonna wait outside for her (as I HATE the alley) then we were gonna head back to her place. That didn't happen. Instead she went home to go to bed, and I came home to drink alone. 'Cause I'm just that fuckin' "cool". Tonight was prolly the last night I'll see her until Tuesday or Wednesday. She's hanging out with a friend tomorrow, and I'm writing my test for my Class 6 learners. She'll be in bed early because she's got to head up to Edmonton sunday morning for the Social Code show then monday she's in Grande Prairie for the S.C. show there. So I'll hopefully see her tuesday night if I manage to make it to her Calgary show. Otherwise, maybe wednesday if she's able to pick me up while my truck is in the shop. Who knows.
But now I think it's time for a bong hit or 6....because I'm all out of Rum.
Hope I'm able to sort all this shit out soon...it's really starting to take a toll on me.
sky:
i hope that things sort out for you soon 