Ok, so,.....I didn't go to Cattle Decapitation/Cryptopsy show due to a shit ton of work that needed to be done at the faire.
I had a headache most of the day. It finally went away after we stoped working then came back after having too much coffiee and not enough to eat and went away again later.
I am going to try and not be lazy today.
Will I ever be happy again? Will I let myself be?
I am afraid that I will be lonely for a long time to come.
Interesting point of interest; I was told that I am an earth element and that my animal "spirit" is a wild boar. So I guess that means that I am filthy swine or a dirty pig or whatever. That's cool though. Whatever.
I want what I can't have. If I get it I do not want it anymore.
I do believe that I am cursed.
I had a headache most of the day. It finally went away after we stoped working then came back after having too much coffiee and not enough to eat and went away again later.
I am going to try and not be lazy today.
Will I ever be happy again? Will I let myself be?
I am afraid that I will be lonely for a long time to come.
Interesting point of interest; I was told that I am an earth element and that my animal "spirit" is a wild boar. So I guess that means that I am filthy swine or a dirty pig or whatever. That's cool though. Whatever.
I want what I can't have. If I get it I do not want it anymore.
I do believe that I am cursed.
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brinny:
not me coming out... him comimg out of the closet!
undecieved176140:
I want something I can't have as well...I don't think I'd be that passionate of a person if I didn't have that. Being a wild boar I'd interpret as aslways looking for something. Boars are powerful too you know, and something that people hunt because you're something they want. Anyways...I just thought I'd let you see a positive side to it since you're being so damned negative 
