my profile was reactivated last week by an anonymous member. thank you! you're either being randomly kind, or are interested in what i've been up to in the past year...
i moved towns for a new job, and i'm now based in canterbury. the job is going ish well, although i'm currently in the middle of a restructure which could make or break whether i stay here beyond september. i found a good friend in the girl i moved in with (good old gumtree) and we've just moved to a new house together, which is a lot better than the last place. this one has a garden too which is great for the green fingered skills
the new place is a 3 bedroom, so we've just got another flatmate in too, which seems to be going ok. i could pick it all to pieces on the negative points, but i've learnt that that doesn't really do my head any good, so i'm just focusing on the best bits. i'm still not any thinner or fitter, but the eating disorder seems to have stopped and all scars have turned to silver, so i'm ok. i'm not going to give myself a trophy about it all, but i'm ok.
i'm single, which feels strange to type and even odder to live. i don't even know how i feel about it all, numb maybe. blank. empty, like there's no energy left to fight and no more tears to cry and you're looking in each others eyes and there's no spark, no flirting, no humour. just defiant, angry eyes.
who knows. i've just been keeping my head down for a while and trying to do the best thing by everyone. we'll see how that pans out.
my parents have gone to europe for a couple of months in a motor home which is pretty cool, and my brother has been offered a job in india, so i've unintentionally gained a couple of properties to be looking after whilst they are away. i think it will be good for me not to have them around all the time too, i always get the feeling that i'm letting them down, but i'm not really sure why. i think i need some space to clear my head and do what i need to do for a while.
hmm. all this is a start. i didn't really make many friends last time i was on here, so i'll try and get more involved. feel free to get in touch!
i moved towns for a new job, and i'm now based in canterbury. the job is going ish well, although i'm currently in the middle of a restructure which could make or break whether i stay here beyond september. i found a good friend in the girl i moved in with (good old gumtree) and we've just moved to a new house together, which is a lot better than the last place. this one has a garden too which is great for the green fingered skills
the new place is a 3 bedroom, so we've just got another flatmate in too, which seems to be going ok. i could pick it all to pieces on the negative points, but i've learnt that that doesn't really do my head any good, so i'm just focusing on the best bits. i'm still not any thinner or fitter, but the eating disorder seems to have stopped and all scars have turned to silver, so i'm ok. i'm not going to give myself a trophy about it all, but i'm ok.
i'm single, which feels strange to type and even odder to live. i don't even know how i feel about it all, numb maybe. blank. empty, like there's no energy left to fight and no more tears to cry and you're looking in each others eyes and there's no spark, no flirting, no humour. just defiant, angry eyes.
who knows. i've just been keeping my head down for a while and trying to do the best thing by everyone. we'll see how that pans out.
my parents have gone to europe for a couple of months in a motor home which is pretty cool, and my brother has been offered a job in india, so i've unintentionally gained a couple of properties to be looking after whilst they are away. i think it will be good for me not to have them around all the time too, i always get the feeling that i'm letting them down, but i'm not really sure why. i think i need some space to clear my head and do what i need to do for a while.
hmm. all this is a start. i didn't really make many friends last time i was on here, so i'll try and get more involved. feel free to get in touch!
but hey... welcome back