keep pushing me down, i keep getting up
Current mood: annoyed
this is the last time i write about this...unless i write about it again which is possible. me and what i thought was a friend had a bit of a falling out. alright, she had a falling out, accusing me of not respecting her relationship with her boy friend (welcome back to high-school ). i told her how much i cared about her, even using the L word and im dis-respecting her. i never forced myself on her, never hurt her never did ANYTHING to her to be disrespectful. all i did was care to much and she hates me for it. fine, i can take being hated. now, someone left a comment on her blog on deadjournal.com. i would show you but i don't have the link to hers anymore, got rid of it a few days ago. but if you ask her, i wrote it. i don't even know what the hell she's talking about which is becoming more and more the norm these days. why the hell would i do even more damage? you know, im so glad to be out of that friendship because i'm being unjustly accused of this childish baby crap and all it's doing is making me push her farther and farther behind me. so here i am, she's probably calling me a dish-rag and laughing about it, forgetting all the good times we had. dragging my name through the mud, bad mouthing and bashing my name every chance she gets and you know what? im fine with that too. what goes around will ALWAYS come around. i was always good to her but sometimes it's easier to push someone away than to care the way she did. im fine with that too. i wish her no ill will, i wish only the best for her and her boyfriend. i hope that all there wishes together come true and that they both lead long and fulfilling lives. yeah, i still care about her, even though she doesn't trust me enough to listen when i tell i have no clue what she's talking about with the dead journal thing, even though i never did anything to warrant that kind of treatment. but you know, things work out for the best. if she didn't crush me the way she did, i wouldn't have been awake to talk to someone i haven't talked to in awhile. someone who was always very important to me in a lot of ways. but in any case, maybe someday she will realize how childish and stupid this whole thing is, we'll both apologize for being stupid and be friends again. or she'll hold a warrantless grudge. frankly, one way or the other doesn't affect me. im not going to sit here and be pissed off about something i didn't even do.
KuroiShinzo