blackcoffeeblues

i am trying to stick with writing in my journal, work is fine. i cant belive i am 34 years old, what the fuc? what have i been doing, do i still think like a 16 year old? is 34 old? i remember not to long ago thinking it was .. i dont know.. still single, still into the same music, same activities, i was just playing x box for crist sake! still like hot women, still horriefied by intamcy and committment, well i like to think my mind is open . i like to think i am matureing, am i just kidding myself? i dont want answers to these ?. i am talking to myself, honestly i dont know where i am going, i must keep pushing forward, i am going to the gym today , i have been slacking the past couple of months, i like pushing mysekf at the gym and work, fuc it i take everthing to the extreme, fuc calm, fuc balance, i cant handle boring. may be thats who the fuc i am, any of you shrinks or wannabe helpfull christian mutha fucas ever think that, maybe thats who i am, live on the edge have fun do what pleases me and thats it, i dont hurt people, i have no kids, no bitchy wife , i try to be nice to humans i come into contact with, as difficult as it maybe but i try, so fuck all you muther fucas