i , am going to try writing in this journal once more , i have been using computers for two weeks now, every time i write my journal dis apears, anyway, i have been up all nite ,i got out of work and i could not sleep; so i checked out the chat room , it was alright, some funny people on thier, i guess this internet thing is ok, i am kinda introverted so this brings me out a little,some of the people have the same sense of humor wich is cool; i , thik writing in this journal will be good for me; i,read some touching journals ;some full of shit journals;i, am not an easy person to touch;but the ones that reached me i knew they were for real because they were things i felt or thought; well, i have to work in 4 hours,i should,try to sleep,been trying to teach myself spanish,it helps me sleep,i ,am doing better with the workbook exersices,its hard for me to do positive things its a battle; i dont know how i can share this with the internety; imust go, i am rambilling,,lata.. p.s. this better get saved or i will never write in this again..i digress........