blackacidream

another night of summer rain storms and drinking and music. decided to cancel my suicide girl account. not because i personally dislike anything about the site, but i just dont get anything from it, i've gone through the message boards, met a suicide girl in person, gone on live chat, and found nothing meanful to me, its not like i dont find these women attractive, but real life seems to me, to be more beautiful than a few jpg's and quick time files, and live journels of women i'll never meet, or ever want to meet. i hate to say it, and i dont want to trash missy suicide, i like what she's done with this site and the whole concept behind suicide girls. but in order to be able to not only pose nude, but want the kind of gratification you can get from it, you have to be a certain type of personality or have certain personality traits, and these are traits i dont like in a person. granted, every women on here has there own reason for joining, and i dont want to generalize. its also not my place to judge a person on the choices thier free to make, regardless of wether or not i think its right.i just dont find anything on this site i could enjoy anymore. but besides all that, i really would like to know why missy suicide started all this, and not just the reasons she gave on the HBO specail, i'd like to be able to see these women form her point of view. maybe my expectations where too high, but oh well, when the month is over, this journel will not exist, and all you out there who are just dying to know the bland and banal happpenings of my everyday life will have to just suffer.