so i got my first real tattoo today. kinda odd looking at my self in the mirror now. my first tattoo's where behind my ears, so they werent in my field of vision, this ones on my arm and will eventually be a quater sleave. so its just kinda odd now, but in a good way. week after next i'm going to get in colored in and maybe then i'll upload some pics. dont really feel like updating my journal today, but eh, oh well.
so, now that i have showered, i feel like typing. so waking life made lucid dreams sound really cool, well, what about lucid nightmares? i had my first lucid dream last night, that also happend to be a nightmare. i've had these dreams before, but never like this. i woke up, in my room, all natural looking, but then just as in my other dreams of this nature, i felt like i was dying. i couldnt open my eye's all the way, i couldnt stand up, or even lift my self up a few inch's of my bed, and the hole time i could feel someones presence there, like someone was pushing me down, making me feel this way. so i use just about all the strength i have to turn the light switch on, and guess what? when i reach it nothing happens. so then the realisation hits me, i'm dreaming. but instead of feeling like i have a measure of control over it, the fear sets into me even harder, and i went into a panic trying to get up and get to somewhere away from whatever is holding me down. so when i finally do wake up, i'm scared to death. i spent about an hour staring at the light switch at about 6am today, paralyzed with fear, wondering if it would turn on, and wondering if that being was still in my room. eh, i'm 22 years old and all i wanted to do this morning was drive to my moms house, and crawl into bed with her. i have another re-occuring nightmare, and if i became lucid in that one, i think my roomates would wake up to me huddled in a fetal position, screaming at the stop of my lungs and sweating like a junky. and who said lusid dreams are fun?
so, now that i have showered, i feel like typing. so waking life made lucid dreams sound really cool, well, what about lucid nightmares? i had my first lucid dream last night, that also happend to be a nightmare. i've had these dreams before, but never like this. i woke up, in my room, all natural looking, but then just as in my other dreams of this nature, i felt like i was dying. i couldnt open my eye's all the way, i couldnt stand up, or even lift my self up a few inch's of my bed, and the hole time i could feel someones presence there, like someone was pushing me down, making me feel this way. so i use just about all the strength i have to turn the light switch on, and guess what? when i reach it nothing happens. so then the realisation hits me, i'm dreaming. but instead of feeling like i have a measure of control over it, the fear sets into me even harder, and i went into a panic trying to get up and get to somewhere away from whatever is holding me down. so when i finally do wake up, i'm scared to death. i spent about an hour staring at the light switch at about 6am today, paralyzed with fear, wondering if it would turn on, and wondering if that being was still in my room. eh, i'm 22 years old and all i wanted to do this morning was drive to my moms house, and crawl into bed with her. i have another re-occuring nightmare, and if i became lucid in that one, i think my roomates would wake up to me huddled in a fetal position, screaming at the stop of my lungs and sweating like a junky. and who said lusid dreams are fun?
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lucid nightmares.... that's like Nightmare on Elmstreet, right?