I am reaching a point where my membership may expire in a week. If SG decides to make another special Valentine's day offer, I will extend my membership. I am really thankful for all the attention I have received on SG, but I don't feel I got as much out of it as I could have. I wish I had more conversations with SG members, but it always seemed a little improbable, and, after a while, it seemed as if I was talking to no one. I would like to renew, but if I don't, please look me up on MySpace, or Facebook, as I would like to continue meeting wonderful people. The people on SG, incidentally, have been some of the most interesting people I've encountered online. Thanks.
That being said, I'd like to use this as my sounding board. I'm going to put into words some of the emotions I've felt I could not publish on any other front. I may publish it where people will not notice it, or I may go so far as to use it as my first blog entry for my AskAsheville gig. It's pretty much a laundry list of random thoughts and feeling I've had as of late, so I hope you like it.
I often feel like a celebrity in this town. In one night, I was on the guest list for two shows, one of them being a high profile show at Grey Eagle. I see people in and outside of my work who are into what I do in music. Now that more people come out to our shows, I have had more people come in to my work and ask about shows, tell me how amazing the last ones were, and tell me how much they like the sound. Ever since John Brannen came in, I have felt better about my stance in the music scene. I feel that I have more respect now that people have seen what I can do. John came to me in Dec. of '07 and wanted to write some music together. Had I known that the next group he wrote for was The Eagles, I would've clocked out off the bar and gone home to grab my guitar. Unfortunately, I was preoccupied with the release of my band's EP, and missed out big time. A few months ago, John asked me to tech for him, and I said yes before he could finish asking. At his rehearsal, I met some real country players, and since then, I've felt that my status has been updated.
Also, in the same note, playing shows with some of Asheville's bigger bands, mainly The Broomstars and The Campaign 1984, has bolstered me up to my Rockstar-status feeling. I can go mostly anywhere in this town and feel welcome and accepted. It's amazing, and I feel the doors open for me so much more.
I know these things sound conceited, but all my life I have been an observer, and a witness, and now my life has become a veritable magic land of opportunity and activity. I am thankful for any person who has even so much as heard the name By Morning. I will never give it up.
In the same note, I have no more tolerance for being nice to bands/ band members who my band has played with. I won't come out to people who's music I don't dig and tell them I hate them, but if a band who isn't worth their attitude wants to be disk-ish (especially in a passive-aggressive manner) to my band, I can be sure that I will now have the balls to let them know I don't approve of their practices. Most likely in the rudest and obnoxious way possible.
I have gained the knowledge and the grace of my closest in friends in the drama that has gripped me in the last six months. I have found that the people that I trusted the most, not to my surprise, have been the ones that I could depend on the most. For this, I am eternally thankful for.
On another note, I have these thoughts that I wish I could express at the speed in which they come to me. At 21 and 22, I could capture these thoughts in an instant, and now it takes me time to harness them all. I feel that I have been away from writing for too long, and, like any muscle that doesn't get the exercise it needs, my writing has atrophied, plain and simple. I have accomplished something though, writing the lyrics for two of the new (well, new-ish) songs in under three weeks time. Pulling them both from personal experiences, I feel they are very strong, if I can kiss my own ass.
I decided that I am out on the verdict on dating. If you guys read any of my posts on the "Dating Sucks" group, it would seem that I was in despite the challenges. But now, it seems, I am out. I just bought a new bike and have invested more time in that and my band, which brings me much joy. I joked that once I bought my bike I would be a ghost, and, to some extent, it's true. I only want to spend time becoming a better cyclist and a better worker, as well as a better musician. I'm pretty much through with wasting my time at a bar every night, and, this summer, I spent a lot of time running. Some weeks, I was running up to 50 miles a week, and I miss that SOOO much. I want to be out on the trail or in my running shoes. My life makes more sense when I'm active, things are clearer when my body is strained and beaten.
I have decided that I am on the market, but with no advertisements. I no longer wish to run in to girls I'd like to date, or go out to bars hoping to meet people. I only hope to go out with my friends and have a great time without the prospect of meeting someone new, someone who would turn my shit upside down. I don't think there is anyone like that, in this town, at least.
For the most part, I'm happy about it. I am tired of wasting my time on girls who aren't worth it. Not to be big-headed, but I have accepted that I am a wonderful person, someone capable of carrying on an amazing relationship. But for some reason, I can't find a match to suite me. It won't stop me from doing the things I love; biking, running, music, and work.
Weird enough, the only girl I WOULD date lives in VA, and we talked about these things today. I would be totally down with her coming down here or me going up there (they have great biking in VA) and just spending time with her. I can see myself going to lunch with her, getting ice cream, walking around downtown....all the while just holding hands. I can see myself lying in bed with her just tossing jokes back and forth, maybe kissing here and there.
These are some of the things I've had rolling around in my head for the past few weeks, and I've been dying to get them out. Hopefully I'll keep this account, and hopefully I'll keep in touch and add more as more things happen in this beautiful year to come.
That being said, I'd like to use this as my sounding board. I'm going to put into words some of the emotions I've felt I could not publish on any other front. I may publish it where people will not notice it, or I may go so far as to use it as my first blog entry for my AskAsheville gig. It's pretty much a laundry list of random thoughts and feeling I've had as of late, so I hope you like it.
I often feel like a celebrity in this town. In one night, I was on the guest list for two shows, one of them being a high profile show at Grey Eagle. I see people in and outside of my work who are into what I do in music. Now that more people come out to our shows, I have had more people come in to my work and ask about shows, tell me how amazing the last ones were, and tell me how much they like the sound. Ever since John Brannen came in, I have felt better about my stance in the music scene. I feel that I have more respect now that people have seen what I can do. John came to me in Dec. of '07 and wanted to write some music together. Had I known that the next group he wrote for was The Eagles, I would've clocked out off the bar and gone home to grab my guitar. Unfortunately, I was preoccupied with the release of my band's EP, and missed out big time. A few months ago, John asked me to tech for him, and I said yes before he could finish asking. At his rehearsal, I met some real country players, and since then, I've felt that my status has been updated.
Also, in the same note, playing shows with some of Asheville's bigger bands, mainly The Broomstars and The Campaign 1984, has bolstered me up to my Rockstar-status feeling. I can go mostly anywhere in this town and feel welcome and accepted. It's amazing, and I feel the doors open for me so much more.
I know these things sound conceited, but all my life I have been an observer, and a witness, and now my life has become a veritable magic land of opportunity and activity. I am thankful for any person who has even so much as heard the name By Morning. I will never give it up.
In the same note, I have no more tolerance for being nice to bands/ band members who my band has played with. I won't come out to people who's music I don't dig and tell them I hate them, but if a band who isn't worth their attitude wants to be disk-ish (especially in a passive-aggressive manner) to my band, I can be sure that I will now have the balls to let them know I don't approve of their practices. Most likely in the rudest and obnoxious way possible.
I have gained the knowledge and the grace of my closest in friends in the drama that has gripped me in the last six months. I have found that the people that I trusted the most, not to my surprise, have been the ones that I could depend on the most. For this, I am eternally thankful for.
On another note, I have these thoughts that I wish I could express at the speed in which they come to me. At 21 and 22, I could capture these thoughts in an instant, and now it takes me time to harness them all. I feel that I have been away from writing for too long, and, like any muscle that doesn't get the exercise it needs, my writing has atrophied, plain and simple. I have accomplished something though, writing the lyrics for two of the new (well, new-ish) songs in under three weeks time. Pulling them both from personal experiences, I feel they are very strong, if I can kiss my own ass.
I decided that I am out on the verdict on dating. If you guys read any of my posts on the "Dating Sucks" group, it would seem that I was in despite the challenges. But now, it seems, I am out. I just bought a new bike and have invested more time in that and my band, which brings me much joy. I joked that once I bought my bike I would be a ghost, and, to some extent, it's true. I only want to spend time becoming a better cyclist and a better worker, as well as a better musician. I'm pretty much through with wasting my time at a bar every night, and, this summer, I spent a lot of time running. Some weeks, I was running up to 50 miles a week, and I miss that SOOO much. I want to be out on the trail or in my running shoes. My life makes more sense when I'm active, things are clearer when my body is strained and beaten.
I have decided that I am on the market, but with no advertisements. I no longer wish to run in to girls I'd like to date, or go out to bars hoping to meet people. I only hope to go out with my friends and have a great time without the prospect of meeting someone new, someone who would turn my shit upside down. I don't think there is anyone like that, in this town, at least.
For the most part, I'm happy about it. I am tired of wasting my time on girls who aren't worth it. Not to be big-headed, but I have accepted that I am a wonderful person, someone capable of carrying on an amazing relationship. But for some reason, I can't find a match to suite me. It won't stop me from doing the things I love; biking, running, music, and work.
Weird enough, the only girl I WOULD date lives in VA, and we talked about these things today. I would be totally down with her coming down here or me going up there (they have great biking in VA) and just spending time with her. I can see myself going to lunch with her, getting ice cream, walking around downtown....all the while just holding hands. I can see myself lying in bed with her just tossing jokes back and forth, maybe kissing here and there.
These are some of the things I've had rolling around in my head for the past few weeks, and I've been dying to get them out. Hopefully I'll keep this account, and hopefully I'll keep in touch and add more as more things happen in this beautiful year to come.