bisou

rough night...

my friend beckie?? one of her friends died from back home. car accident...

it's really hard just to see the hurt in her eyes, like that. you can actually see the reality hit her every few minutes. she'll pull herself together, and then she just lets out the saddest "oooh shitttt..." ... that pain is bad. that pain is some shit that i dont ever wanna have to deal with. it's too much for one person to handle.
she feels like she's been wronged.
and she has. this is the second friend of hers that has died in one year.
she'll make a trip home tomorrow, be gone for a week. she's trying to be strong for friends back home, and she's bringing textbooks and she's called all her teachers...so strong. so much stronger than i'd EVER be in a situation like that.

meanwhile, got back from charlotte tonight. got to see giselle, hang out with her AND carly again. like old days, for real. that's where it's at RIGHT THERE. those girls make my LIFE. the weekend was Nice. capital N, that's right.

back to school.

ooooh boy. what am i gonna do with myself.