This is why February is going to suck a hard one.
The weekend just gone marks 1 year since I met Jim.
Then the week was spent in Amsterdam with my mum and sisters, and he phoned me in my hotel room every night,
On the friday I came home. I went to see Gary on the Saturday, then Jim came up to see me on the sunday and like the classy kids we are, we stayed in a Travel Inn. By then I'd already made up my mind.
Spent the tuesday at Gary's, then wednesday was valentines day. It was hard, I wanted to be with Jim but I wasn't. The next day I broke up with Gary, and sent a postcard in a red envelope to Jim saying I wanted to be with him.
On the friday he was on the phone to me as he came home from work. He read the postcard and he actually fell over because of it.
I then went down to see him and stayed with him for just over a week.
I was so looking forward to this month. To actually have someone to care about the stupid fucking Hallmark pile of crap that is Valentines day with. For once someone who actually fully 100% cared about me and didn't have to make a choice.
I went to see Jim at the weekend there, and the postcard isnt on the fridge anymore, and I slept in the guest room because now we're just friends. Nearly 2 months of being 'just friends' and it's not as easy as I thought it would be.
I realised that since I was 5, I've always been the 2nd choice. Ever since my primary school boyfriend gave me a rose on valentines day, and then gave another girl a ring. Ok, I laugh about it, but nothing's really changed since. Jonathan chose Katie, Ross chose Kirsty, Colin chose Sam, Pete chose...well Pete was bad fucking timeing, so girlfriends and boyfriends got in the way for us both, James chose Katie and Kelly, Stuart chose Whatsherface, Gary chose and open fucking relationship.
I just don't know what to do with myself.
Sarah xx
The weekend just gone marks 1 year since I met Jim.
Then the week was spent in Amsterdam with my mum and sisters, and he phoned me in my hotel room every night,
On the friday I came home. I went to see Gary on the Saturday, then Jim came up to see me on the sunday and like the classy kids we are, we stayed in a Travel Inn. By then I'd already made up my mind.
Spent the tuesday at Gary's, then wednesday was valentines day. It was hard, I wanted to be with Jim but I wasn't. The next day I broke up with Gary, and sent a postcard in a red envelope to Jim saying I wanted to be with him.
On the friday he was on the phone to me as he came home from work. He read the postcard and he actually fell over because of it.
I then went down to see him and stayed with him for just over a week.
I was so looking forward to this month. To actually have someone to care about the stupid fucking Hallmark pile of crap that is Valentines day with. For once someone who actually fully 100% cared about me and didn't have to make a choice.
I went to see Jim at the weekend there, and the postcard isnt on the fridge anymore, and I slept in the guest room because now we're just friends. Nearly 2 months of being 'just friends' and it's not as easy as I thought it would be.
I realised that since I was 5, I've always been the 2nd choice. Ever since my primary school boyfriend gave me a rose on valentines day, and then gave another girl a ring. Ok, I laugh about it, but nothing's really changed since. Jonathan chose Katie, Ross chose Kirsty, Colin chose Sam, Pete chose...well Pete was bad fucking timeing, so girlfriends and boyfriends got in the way for us both, James chose Katie and Kelly, Stuart chose Whatsherface, Gary chose and open fucking relationship.
I just don't know what to do with myself.
Sarah xx
Just buy me a pancake breafast in the morning.