biscayne

I am the asshole that brought other assholes to the party.
I'm sorry and I have no excuse. Hypnogogic and ladybelmont are the greatest people and I happy they are still on my friends list. I still don't know what exactly happened last night, but I'm very sorry to everybody for how I acted. I'm usually a pleasant drunk but I was on a wierd vibe that I haven't known for a long time, and I dont miss it. I've made a change for the better within the last six years of how I act towards and treat others and the friends I associate with. It was easier to be bitter and mean, and to surround myself with like minded people just trying to get over on anybody I could. I've done some ill shit to some good people before, and I've been had plenty of times too. I like the more positive role I have now, but my defences unfortunatly are the same. I am a strong person without the contempt I used to hold and I am getting better. Socializing with the friends I have made here is helping me, and I appreciate you all alot. I have met everybody on my list in person, and I would give you the shirt off my back to help any of you in any way I could. Sometimes I just get a little sentimental and want to be known as Chris L***e, not biscayne from the site.
My gift in the white elephant could not describe what I feel like more perfectly............fucking douche!