UPDATE ON MY LIFE.
Things have been so incredibly frustrating for me lately, I figured I'd write it all out and then maybe it would be a little easier to deal with. I don't know.
First thing's first. So awhile back I moved in with a highschool friend of mine as well as her boyfriend and another friends' place, and it completely went to shit. I found another friend whom I decided to move in with and I was really excited about it, she's this 26 year old english chick and she seemed sweet, the deal was great, so I took it. A few days upon moving in I started having this feeling of like, an impending doom of sorts. I tried to shake it but it just wouldn't go away. Well, basically, trust your gut instinct. Always. I ended up being (attempted) conned for my damage deposit and whatnot, she turned out to be a fucking psychotic freak... Anyways, it's a good thing my dad is super awesome and should have been a lawyer... He's been able to get me out of all of this stupid legal stuff that's been going on. So I'm still here, because there is nowhere else for me to go and I'm broke. She is still fucking mental, she called me a fucking cunt and whatnot because I had a friend over one night and apparently we were too loud, which is understandable, but when I tried to apologize she was still in a fucking awful mood and screamed at me again so I just didn't bother with it... and apparently she took great offense to that. She told the landlady of all people awful things about me, things like me having sex with a bunch of people and letting my friends just come and go from the apartment and not bothering to lock the door and doing whatever else... I have had people over, yes, but not in the extremes that she's made it out to be. Anyways, the story could go on forever, but long story short, my living situation at the moment is horrible. I'm stressed out all the time and I'm scared to go home most of the time. I have to lock my things in my room because she's just so unpredictable and well, frankly I'm quite sick of everything.
So that bit about me having no money? Well, just so happens they cut my seasonal contract short and so my last day at my job is TODAY. Fair warning guys... Agh. I have to drop off resumes today. Really scared that I won't be able to find a job and my dad is already loaning me rent money and I have no money to eat... Really? I didn't think moving out was going to be this silly.
Third: The love life is stupid right now. So stupid. My ex is madly in love with me and I love his company but I have no idea how to break it to him that I really don't want to be with him ever again.
Also, there is a boy I really really like, we sort of have a friends with benefits situation going on but the more I hook up with him the more I feel for him. I know, stupid girl emotions.
Anyways, that's about all. Sorry for the awful rant, I come off as ungrateful and whatnot but I'm really just hoping to catch a fucking break soon. I keep wondering what it'll take to finally break me. All in all, so far 2013 has been hectic and definitely a learning experience I can't say I've enjoyed.
Things have been so incredibly frustrating for me lately, I figured I'd write it all out and then maybe it would be a little easier to deal with. I don't know.
First thing's first. So awhile back I moved in with a highschool friend of mine as well as her boyfriend and another friends' place, and it completely went to shit. I found another friend whom I decided to move in with and I was really excited about it, she's this 26 year old english chick and she seemed sweet, the deal was great, so I took it. A few days upon moving in I started having this feeling of like, an impending doom of sorts. I tried to shake it but it just wouldn't go away. Well, basically, trust your gut instinct. Always. I ended up being (attempted) conned for my damage deposit and whatnot, she turned out to be a fucking psychotic freak... Anyways, it's a good thing my dad is super awesome and should have been a lawyer... He's been able to get me out of all of this stupid legal stuff that's been going on. So I'm still here, because there is nowhere else for me to go and I'm broke. She is still fucking mental, she called me a fucking cunt and whatnot because I had a friend over one night and apparently we were too loud, which is understandable, but when I tried to apologize she was still in a fucking awful mood and screamed at me again so I just didn't bother with it... and apparently she took great offense to that. She told the landlady of all people awful things about me, things like me having sex with a bunch of people and letting my friends just come and go from the apartment and not bothering to lock the door and doing whatever else... I have had people over, yes, but not in the extremes that she's made it out to be. Anyways, the story could go on forever, but long story short, my living situation at the moment is horrible. I'm stressed out all the time and I'm scared to go home most of the time. I have to lock my things in my room because she's just so unpredictable and well, frankly I'm quite sick of everything.
So that bit about me having no money? Well, just so happens they cut my seasonal contract short and so my last day at my job is TODAY. Fair warning guys... Agh. I have to drop off resumes today. Really scared that I won't be able to find a job and my dad is already loaning me rent money and I have no money to eat... Really? I didn't think moving out was going to be this silly.
Third: The love life is stupid right now. So stupid. My ex is madly in love with me and I love his company but I have no idea how to break it to him that I really don't want to be with him ever again.
Also, there is a boy I really really like, we sort of have a friends with benefits situation going on but the more I hook up with him the more I feel for him. I know, stupid girl emotions.
Anyways, that's about all. Sorry for the awful rant, I come off as ungrateful and whatnot but I'm really just hoping to catch a fucking break soon. I keep wondering what it'll take to finally break me. All in all, so far 2013 has been hectic and definitely a learning experience I can't say I've enjoyed.
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winged1:
Sorry to hear about all this Bisante. I've been going through a roommate situation myself, but your roommate makes mine look sane by comparison... Hope you're able to find employment and get the fuck out of there ASAP! Good luck!
bisante:
Haha, I saw that on one of your posts! Poor guy, we can totally sympathize with each other. Fucking retards, haha. Thanks! You're the best!