Inez: That is pretty much how I feel too. I feel like my interests are so spread out that I never seem to fit in with any one group. I do see the good points about it and when I find a person that is similar it is great but I guess just being in a new place and knowing few people just compounds my emotions and makes me feel that much more alone at times. I guess I should be used to it coming from a small ignorant town where I was always considered a total freak. I have always been an outsider. I mean dont get me wrong, I wasn't treated too badly.. In fact I was kind of popular when I was younger but I was always the blah blah blah with a twist. I was like the one kid at all the punk rock shows that was dressed up preppy but had eyeliner. Then the next day I would be wearing combat boots with a frickn Charlatans UK t-shirt or sumthin. I dressed different everyday based on my mood and still do. You get the point. I guess even back then I just loved so many things. It is very refreshing to hear that you have felt the same way and enjoying all those things is really a great thing. I agree with you completely. I love it. I have always tried to be a well rounded person and I guess I have accomplished it but that in itself has its down sides just like everything else in life.
And yes yes I will take the photo down if you hate it so muchhehe But just for you!
Aster: Yeah that was a very strange situation for me. I am usually a very strong person and that sort of shit really just pisses me off when I person tries to do that. But for some reason in this situation I just wanted to please the girl so bad. Lame, I know but it is sort of strange. Its like she was sooo slick about it that I didnt even know it was happening. And now not having the idea of pleasing her in my head has released me and made me realize that I was denying my true self. I have to say that is does feel great to finally fill into my skin again and I think my art and perspective have really shown improvement. Its like everything I do now is filled with true and authenticity because I really have no one to please. I am glad it happened though because I am that much smarter now.
Echo: Thanks Echo, that did make me feel better and I actually dont think that is weird. I mean yes it is weird but nothing that I would ever look down on a person for. I just say weird as in the general public would think it weird. I am a real softy for bizarre romance type stuff. O yeah and I am sorry I havent gotten you that other image yet. Today was a busy day. I promise I will get it to you real soon.
gimmesatisfaction: Aww shucks. I have to say I am horrible at receiving compliments not that I dont like them. But thanks really. All of you guys are really helping with my low self-esteem problem
Ok so lets see. I had today off and it was a fun day regardless of some silly shit that happened. I started off today by watching Undercover Brother. It was pretty funny but the copy I have on my computer is not the greatest quality so I didnt get the whole experience. Then I went down to school and got an application. I cant wait to start again. I got so hyped just looking at the students and such. Then I got together with an artist that I am going to be working with. I am helping him put a book together with his art and so we met up to discuss the details. I am probably going to be collaborating with him (Lucas) too. So then I have a craving for a Jamba Juice. I head down to Hillcrest and get one then decide to go into Off the Record (one of my fav record stores). I am browsing through the records and I see this dope album by Kid 606 Action Packed that just came out. I get so excited that I turn around very quickly and knock my fucking Jamba Juice over and in slow motion I see it fall to the ground and make a huge mess. It really sucked but no one in the store noticed. So I am in a bind now. I want to clean it up cause I love the store and it was really stupid but I felt like such a dork so I am getting this split vibe. I decide to leave quickly before someone notices (weak, I know). It just sucks though cause I was really enjoying my drink plus I didnt get to get the record that I wanted. 2 strikes!!! I guess I will go back later to get it but they know me at this store and I feel really bad. I should have just fessed up and cleaned it up but I just felt soo stupid cause I had purposely been really really careful until that happened
I get home and lucky me my bestest friend in the whole wide world is online and she has her cam working now so we have a little video phone conversation and O it was so great. I always feel better after talking to her. Lisa you are the dopest girl on the planet. Know this. Lisa and I just connect so fully. Its like she is the younger female version of me.
Come night time, I head out to a bar with some friends and have a few drinks. We were right next to this hookah bar so I drag everyone over there and we partake of this wonderful peach tobacco. I am not even a big smoker but it was very delicious. All and all it was pretty fun. We met up there with a few people I had just recently met and we all just enjoyed some really good conversation..
Even with my earlier disappointment it was a good day.
And yes yes I will take the photo down if you hate it so muchhehe But just for you!
Aster: Yeah that was a very strange situation for me. I am usually a very strong person and that sort of shit really just pisses me off when I person tries to do that. But for some reason in this situation I just wanted to please the girl so bad. Lame, I know but it is sort of strange. Its like she was sooo slick about it that I didnt even know it was happening. And now not having the idea of pleasing her in my head has released me and made me realize that I was denying my true self. I have to say that is does feel great to finally fill into my skin again and I think my art and perspective have really shown improvement. Its like everything I do now is filled with true and authenticity because I really have no one to please. I am glad it happened though because I am that much smarter now.
Echo: Thanks Echo, that did make me feel better and I actually dont think that is weird. I mean yes it is weird but nothing that I would ever look down on a person for. I just say weird as in the general public would think it weird. I am a real softy for bizarre romance type stuff. O yeah and I am sorry I havent gotten you that other image yet. Today was a busy day. I promise I will get it to you real soon.
gimmesatisfaction: Aww shucks. I have to say I am horrible at receiving compliments not that I dont like them. But thanks really. All of you guys are really helping with my low self-esteem problem
Ok so lets see. I had today off and it was a fun day regardless of some silly shit that happened. I started off today by watching Undercover Brother. It was pretty funny but the copy I have on my computer is not the greatest quality so I didnt get the whole experience. Then I went down to school and got an application. I cant wait to start again. I got so hyped just looking at the students and such. Then I got together with an artist that I am going to be working with. I am helping him put a book together with his art and so we met up to discuss the details. I am probably going to be collaborating with him (Lucas) too. So then I have a craving for a Jamba Juice. I head down to Hillcrest and get one then decide to go into Off the Record (one of my fav record stores). I am browsing through the records and I see this dope album by Kid 606 Action Packed that just came out. I get so excited that I turn around very quickly and knock my fucking Jamba Juice over and in slow motion I see it fall to the ground and make a huge mess. It really sucked but no one in the store noticed. So I am in a bind now. I want to clean it up cause I love the store and it was really stupid but I felt like such a dork so I am getting this split vibe. I decide to leave quickly before someone notices (weak, I know). It just sucks though cause I was really enjoying my drink plus I didnt get to get the record that I wanted. 2 strikes!!! I guess I will go back later to get it but they know me at this store and I feel really bad. I should have just fessed up and cleaned it up but I just felt soo stupid cause I had purposely been really really careful until that happened
I get home and lucky me my bestest friend in the whole wide world is online and she has her cam working now so we have a little video phone conversation and O it was so great. I always feel better after talking to her. Lisa you are the dopest girl on the planet. Know this. Lisa and I just connect so fully. Its like she is the younger female version of me.
Come night time, I head out to a bar with some friends and have a few drinks. We were right next to this hookah bar so I drag everyone over there and we partake of this wonderful peach tobacco. I am not even a big smoker but it was very delicious. All and all it was pretty fun. We met up there with a few people I had just recently met and we all just enjoyed some really good conversation..
Even with my earlier disappointment it was a good day.
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jamba juice is the shit there used to be one on near all the spots i hung out in when i lived in chicago. it looked out of place as shit but it was always packed!
being newish or having moved definitely compounds shit,..it always gets better though so it's just something that you deal with when you move i guess. i just moved back home a couple years ago from chicago to finish school and most of my old friends are either dead, in jail, married, with kids or both, or moved. so i feel ya there too. i'm kinda diggin my new friends though, you friends that are such from the past aren't always the best people to be with because when you're younger or have changed the growth kind of interferes and maybe they're not the best people for you anymore, but see, when you move and stuff you get nice new shiney ones that you pick in adulthood! it just takes a while, bah, and my best friend anthony lives in new jersey...that's one friend i wish i could take with me wherever i moved, but it makes the friendship all the sweeter, i think.
/end sap
O the picture is not a hated thing!