I spent the first part of the holiday's (Christmas Eve) at antid0te's place, which was a great time all around. Hoolah hoo!
That last thing is somewhat of an inside joke. Or it's likely at least, that it will be to you. No matter...
Then the next part of that day on the bus back home.
And there was lots of stuff that happened all throughout the next few days with my family and with my nephew specifically. I'm not going into much here, I just don't have time to do it, but suffice it to say that he and I are developing an unbelievable bond with each other. He's not pillar of succint communication yet, but there's an understanding beneath it that runs though our blood, and I can feel that. So does he. I break his heart each time I leave, and I wish it didn't have to be that way.
I'm a surrogate father to this boy. I'm as much of a dad as he knows, in fact. And if things continue the way they are, his memories of me will be much stronger through his life than he'll ever have of his father. He might not even have any memories of that person. He'll grow up like my sister, knowing her father is out there somewhere, but not knowing what's happened or happening with him.
And what's sad about that, is it means he has a better chance. I hate to admit that, but it's true.
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Now that I'm back, I'll have glasses again soon. I may be able to get some dental work done soon as well, and that's rock 'n roll at it's finest. I've been given an opportunity to participate in medical research studies, and that ain't half bad.
Money for rent, I'm thinking. Money for debts, I'm thinking. Hopefully a bit of a surplus to put away, I'm thinking.
Money for Europe, I'm thinking.
That last thing is somewhat of an inside joke. Or it's likely at least, that it will be to you. No matter...
Then the next part of that day on the bus back home.
And there was lots of stuff that happened all throughout the next few days with my family and with my nephew specifically. I'm not going into much here, I just don't have time to do it, but suffice it to say that he and I are developing an unbelievable bond with each other. He's not pillar of succint communication yet, but there's an understanding beneath it that runs though our blood, and I can feel that. So does he. I break his heart each time I leave, and I wish it didn't have to be that way.
I'm a surrogate father to this boy. I'm as much of a dad as he knows, in fact. And if things continue the way they are, his memories of me will be much stronger through his life than he'll ever have of his father. He might not even have any memories of that person. He'll grow up like my sister, knowing her father is out there somewhere, but not knowing what's happened or happening with him.
And what's sad about that, is it means he has a better chance. I hate to admit that, but it's true.
*
Now that I'm back, I'll have glasses again soon. I may be able to get some dental work done soon as well, and that's rock 'n roll at it's finest. I've been given an opportunity to participate in medical research studies, and that ain't half bad.
Money for rent, I'm thinking. Money for debts, I'm thinking. Hopefully a bit of a surplus to put away, I'm thinking.
Money for Europe, I'm thinking.
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Haha, random side note.. Kiersten was here yesterday and she was dying my hair. I missed her slightly. Yeah..my hair is a shade of blue/purple now. All of it.. I just have yet to wash it out..because I'm a lazy fucker. Anywho... she was saying that she had to come visit and get her sunglasses back from you. I thought that was amusing in a way. Probably because they're sunglasses, and they're miles and miles away.. lol. She says she's going to make you mail them to her.
We haven't talked on the telephone in awhile dudeman. You should gimme a gangle sometime. Happy New Year, btw.
It's gonna be an interesting one for me.