billybeer

Fuck I'm so fucking bored all the time. I feel like I completely missed the boat when it came with all the fucking interesting things to do in this lifetime. I used to have fun, I used to talk to people all the time and hang out all the time and go to shows and be active and intersting, and now all I do is sit around and play guitar and play on this goddamn computer. FUCK. I hate it so much. I am in for a major life change. Because if I dont change something I'm going to commit suicide. Yes. That's right. Being sick and home has really made me see that outside of working, I dont do anything I used to anymore. It's like, when I made a major decision to take back my life, there was nothing really to take back at the point that I decided it was time. It was already gone. You cant win.