billieprudence

HIT PLAY WHILE HERE!


Hello pussies.

I'm back on medication. Been taking legal drug to control my anxiety for a month now, and all is well. I was off medication for over a year, and it was a downward spiral back to hell.

Some people are real dogs. I will never forget the events that happened to me during the last 2 months. Wont talk about it as someone might try to desactivate my account here again. I am disgusted....

I got myself a new job YeahH! The medication really helps me to stay calm, and I need to do something to stop thinking about evil and bad surrounding me. I'm a suicide girl. litterally. I am genuinly melancholic in life for the past 30 years or so...and yes I wish I was dead too often. The medics really helps there too...
but
I decided to apply to work in a private elderly residence, with no fucking experience in that domain, so I can be surrounded by old people at the end of their life, disabled, slow and incontinent, half there... They are the one who should want to be dead. Not me. It slowly helps me to realize things...

I love taking care of the people there, really 73 elders! I prepare and serve the supper and hot beverages.... they drink a LOT of hot water... YUK! and I prepare and serve the desserts, and the 19h snacks and I do the dishes and clean the kitchen, I do the laundry related to the kitchen and the bibs , plus one million other things I'm happy they hired me

I also applied here and I have an interview at the end of May . Its a dark 30s atmosphere circus, with performers and shows that will be presented under a huge tent all summer long in my area.

I am officially a Cult Sirens, joining model like Vivid Vivika, Madeleine Horn, Bianca Beauchamp, Jean Bardot, Nicotine and Maiwan! Its such an honor for me I now have my profile and pictures and a french interview there.

My son bought his scooter! ahahha with his own money! I'm so proud of him!!! 14 1/2 years old, a girlfriend, a job and now a scooter and he is still in school and doing good

I had a super cool modeling job for a local designer " riff-raff clothing co. " for a piece in the 2010 summer swimwear line It was fun and the weather was perfecto!!!! I popped my shoot photographer's cherry!! I was her very first "model" She was so great and I really am eager to shoot again, I'm in the team now! yayyy

I bought new shoes again and some cute summer dresses, I still have a new set of pre-glued 26" extensions to put on but I feel like cutting my hair and dye them... I dont know.... I can wear any haircut, and I need to change... any suggestions please?

I have a lot of short-films project for the summer, horror theme and conceptual fun stuff with the great Isabelle Stephen. She's a doll and also a Cult Sirens and she is so talented!!!

ok well, enough now, time for some pictures.... my camera is out of batteries now and I'm too lasy to go buy some. I will update this blog with more pics somewhere during the week.

Have a nice month of Lilac, and thanks for leaving your comments on my set and blogs.

Kiss Kiss

Billie
xoxo