billieprudence

Its time for a new blog I guess...

I'm not feeling so well... I'm mad at me for I cant seem to find a job. My surgeries completely have destroyed my hands and now there is nothing I can do without being in pain. And on top of that I suffer from bpd and I just cant get better....I'm all fucked up... Its so hard on my self esteem. And for my wallet too. I need money. BAD.

My father died last year, and yes I had inheritance. But I hated my father. And I decided to give all the money to my own kids for college. I could have bought a car, some great clothings and travel with his legacy. I could have use it for a down payment for a house.... but no... I really hated him, so my kids will benefits his money, and its fine like that. Going to college and university is SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE, I would had never been able to pay for that.. I made a good decision. But now, I'm broke... totaly broke.

My boyfriend have a damn good job and makes a LOT of money ( I got him the job btw), and he is paying for everything. Even my tampax dammit. I'm so sick of it... He asked me 200$ per week as my contribution when we moved together in febuary and I cant even give him each week... I model every time I have a contract, and each penny goes to him... but lately I cant seem to find any interesting gigs, or any gigs at all in my area.

There are a LOT of new girls around and they dont get that we MUST get paid for nude modeling. even if its not a lot... nakedness HAVE TO BE PAID. so they litteraly steal off the jobs infront of us, models who ask for money to pose nude, without even knowing what they do... just to have a glimpse of "ouhhhhh Im a nude model..." Im not signed with nobody, I'm not famous, Im not even considered as a pro. I'm just a model who pose nude for cash, prints and credits.

I feel so useless, its killing me inside. Im so damn fragile. I wish I had never came back from holiday... I want to dig myself a hole and die there...

I'm unhappy.




I have done some shoots in the past months, one with MissShank GOD I LOVE this woman, and she is such an amazing model ...I have opened a profile on MFI.com (for a reconstruction-lift-whatever its called), and I was also chosen to be an hostess on a foot pleasures night in Montreal on september 12. I have won a 75$ pre-paid visa to spend on an online sex-shop and I am still on the contest for august. I want to win the 100$, so I can get myself a highly boned leather corset I was OUTRAGEOUSLY surprised to find out I can narrow my waist to a tiny 22 inches!!!! so here's the link to help me win the august contest... anybody can enter the contest.
Exhibicam Monthly Contest
scroll down, hit the " I'm 18+ bla bla bla" and clik on the 3 sample pics you will see at the top. All the models will appear. I'm first at the moment Lets keep it that way. I want a corset from the boutique! HELP!

Thats it for me now... as usual, enjoy the pictures I post.
Love
Billie

SHOULD I MAKE A SET WITH THIS SHOOT??? I have like 350 pics... what do you think this time?


PICS FROM A PAST SHOOT( you might remember I posted some pics of it.. I had like 5 pics.... I just had the rest of the pics last week... was about time DAMMIT!!!

Yes, its the real Storm Shadow master of the ARASHIKAGE Clan's sword, from GI*Joe

PICS WITH MISSSHANK during her trip to Montreal in july.... droooooooooooooooooowl!!!!


end of blog with 4 videos of BoA if you guys have never heard of her, well, OPEN UP TO THE WORLD!!!
She is a HUGE SUPERSTAR in Asia for YEARS now, and she is making her debut in the USAAAAA this summer She is an INCREDIBLE dancer and performer, she could teach a LOT of hip-pop singer how to dance, I get CHILLS everytime I see her dance. Her beats are HOT, her clips are so cool, I have a major crush on her at the moment.

EAT YOU UP ( is it the french actor Jean Reno I see as a judge???)


ENERGETIC (her latest single)


LOOK WHO'S TALKING NOW rehersal ( written by the infamous Britney Spears )


OVER THE TOP live at the MKMF awards 2005 (one of her craziest performance)


BYE NOW

THANK YOU