Only one way to describe the summer that will not end, Shit Maelstrom! Lost or stolen paychecks at work, my informal engagement was called off and I moved because she no longer anted me around, found out that most off my friends aren't true friends, and to top it all off, I am struggling in school due to my weird work schedule. I have trimmed down my normal amount of sleep( usually 6-7 hrs.) to about 3-4 hours if I'm lucky.
Despite all of the negativity that has smothered my summer into oblivion, I remain oddly optimistic. I always seem to come through adversity with my head high and looking forward to what is next, a lot easier than most. For the most part I regret that notion. I have come to realize lately, that however optimistic that I am, I haven't been "happy" for a very long time. I now think to myself, I want to be happy for a change, instead of just optimistic or content.
I fear that by taking chances to find happiness, I will inevitability find harsher heartaches than I have ever come across so far. That is a fear I must face though, because optimistic and content are not enough anymore.
I now quest to find something, anything, that could make me truly happy.
Wish me luck!
- Adventurously
Despite all of the negativity that has smothered my summer into oblivion, I remain oddly optimistic. I always seem to come through adversity with my head high and looking forward to what is next, a lot easier than most. For the most part I regret that notion. I have come to realize lately, that however optimistic that I am, I haven't been "happy" for a very long time. I now think to myself, I want to be happy for a change, instead of just optimistic or content.
I fear that by taking chances to find happiness, I will inevitability find harsher heartaches than I have ever come across so far. That is a fear I must face though, because optimistic and content are not enough anymore.
I now quest to find something, anything, that could make me truly happy.
Wish me luck!
- Adventurously
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