Ahhh such a lovely morning...I got to sleep in late and stayed out last night shooting pool and having fun 
The whore wasnt anywhere around last night and it was soooo nice. We are doing better...we ofcourse have our moments but what married couple doesnt. Its just hard having to sit there and be in the same room as her (on pool night). It has taken every ounce of strength not to just knock the living shit out of her. I really am not a violent person but there is a breaking point in everyone. I have decided to not go back to having the girls 9ball team...I have joined Bills team...and I also am joining his 8ball team...the whole basis for joining the pool leauge was for him and I to have more time together doing something we both enjoy...and well you know the story. I just want her out of his mind and out of his heart. We have been going to therapy (again) and it is helping...she is an awsome therapist. He just hasnt come to terms with the fact that she CAN NOT in any way be a part of his life. Its very hard to have to sit there and watch him mour the loss of her...I want to freaking scream what about me asshole...what about the fact that 12 1/2 yrs of marraige and trust is now fucking gone? I know I have to let him deal with this and be supportive but its hard when I hold so much anger and disgust inside of me for this. I gave them both 100% of my trust and got slapped in the face by both of them. Its really difficult to get over such hurt and betrayal. For christ sake you would think knowing that I am bi-sexual all you have to do is ask and I will bring her home...and I did, not knowing they had already been having a damn affair for 4 months 
its more than just the sex...it was the emotional connection...you know what I mean? Well I have bored you all enough for one day...have a lovely day everyone... 
The whore wasnt anywhere around last night and it was soooo nice. We are doing better...we ofcourse have our moments but what married couple doesnt. Its just hard having to sit there and be in the same room as her (on pool night). It has taken every ounce of strength not to just knock the living shit out of her. I really am not a violent person but there is a breaking point in everyone. I have decided to not go back to having the girls 9ball team...I have joined Bills team...and I also am joining his 8ball team...the whole basis for joining the pool leauge was for him and I to have more time together doing something we both enjoy...and well you know the story. I just want her out of his mind and out of his heart. We have been going to therapy (again) and it is helping...she is an awsome therapist. He just hasnt come to terms with the fact that she CAN NOT in any way be a part of his life. Its very hard to have to sit there and watch him mour the loss of her...I want to freaking scream what about me asshole...what about the fact that 12 1/2 yrs of marraige and trust is now fucking gone? I know I have to let him deal with this and be supportive but its hard when I hold so much anger and disgust inside of me for this. I gave them both 100% of my trust and got slapped in the face by both of them. Its really difficult to get over such hurt and betrayal. For christ sake you would think knowing that I am bi-sexual all you have to do is ask and I will bring her home...and I did, not knowing they had already been having a damn affair for 4 months its more than just the sex...it was the emotional connection...you know what I mean? Well I have bored you all enough for one day...have a lovely day everyone...
have a good weekend!!
i don't want to sound like an ass but you really can't mourn or pine for something/someone if they are staying with you.
i am not saying it's right either but i have seen it before you only mourn what you have lost and in his mind the fact that your still there means to him that things will work out .
my dear i have been in your position maybe not for as long a time but for 5 years i was with someone who cheated on me from day 1. i felt like such an idioty wheni found out, how could i not have known blah blah... sometimes when something is broken such as trust and respect no matter how much you try it can not be repaired.
i hope i am wrong and that you will be very happy together forever but i just hope that you are happy in whatever comes