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I really dont think my life could get anymore depressing...of all the fucking shit to happen...why are some men such pigs? Lying cheating bastards...as you can see I am on a male bashing kick tonight I am so freaking depressed right now. I am sitting here depressed having my ususal crown & ginger, and feeling like absolute shit emotionally. I feel like saying fuck the world...but I know I cant because I have to be an adult and keep myself together for my daughters sake. He says he wants this to work out...but how can it? He has been lying and cheating for months...and I think I knew but kept a blind eye to it. I let myself believe it wasnt true and now I am not sure what to do. We've gone back to counseling and so far I have felt worse than before. I have a very troubled past that has caused a lot of problems deep inside me...I've done my best to work that out but I guess I haven't completely gotten over it. Not that what he has done really has anything to do with my past...but it just reminds me of all the other fucked up relationships I've had and how they didnt work out. I just feel so lost right now...pretty shitty way to feel...and I know it will go away in time...as they say time heals all wounds...I just wish at this point I believed it. Nightie night all