Not like anyone will be reading this but I figure I should get used to writing journals since I WILL be an SG someday. If all goes well. I never thought that I would want to do such a thing as posing naked for an internet pinup site. I've never had high self esteem. I think its cause of my boy Mitch. He's the first guy to ever make me feel like living. I just feel so comfortable being naked in front of anyone. Even those people who are in way better shape than me. For the first time ever, I can say "Yeah I'm naked, so what?" I dunno. I think its cool. 
It's nice to hear that your BF has givin you the high self-esteem. I imagine that it makes your relationship more exciting, self-confidence is always sexy. GL with getting a set on the site