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hey ho
I had the weirdest dream this night, it included caramelscented breasts, doing speed on hello kitty covers, christian fanatics screaming the only right way to live is live like foxes.
It was lovely.
I have a good feeling about this day. Im just in such a great mood. And yeah, its awesome.
I kinda deicided im gonna buy me and Tobias a rehersal...
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fredricka:
Godt hre at du endelig har det litt bra igjen. Men jeg visste ikke at du drev noe srlig med musikk. Gjr du det? Og hvordan skal dere f rd til alt sammen? Oi, n hres jeg ut som en pessimist. Det er ikke meningen. Klart dere skal f det til om det er det dere vil.

Tenker masse p deg fortiden. Skulle nske du var litt nrmere.
kiss kiss kiss
ta2dmom:
It would DEFINITELY be worth it.
I can't tell you enough how glad it makes me to hear how happy your journals are sounding now!
xoxo
kiss


also, that sounds like a really cool dream wink
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It started out as a lousy day.
Guess a cup of coffee and a phonecall can make wonders for a lost girl like myself.
I never was much for overrated stuff.
NOW I WANNA SNIFF SOME GLUE

My mum is fuckin awesome, i cant belive how much that phonecall cheered me up, and all she had to do was listen and im ever so greatful...
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ta2dmom:
That's awesome that you and your mom have a relationship like that. My mom and I have our issues but we always know that we really love each other.
I love that picture of you two. So cute!
xoxo
kiss



and just so you know, I think I'm going to go call my mom just because of this entry wink
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Uhuh, uh uh, UH UH
Gold lions gonna tell me where the light is

I guess im just really down
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So ive been spending this morning reading about wicca, and admiring Cherry cus shes such a great photagrapher.
Sometimes I wish i put more energy into photography but like... Yeah.. Idunno, i just think i do have a talent.
Shes SO talented that girl tho. I really admire her work.

Ive had a marathontalk with my man, and like, yeah, it was lovely, it went...
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frolleinsuzy:
Its great that you feel so positive, sweetheart. kiss
ta2dmom:
I think it's great that you've thought about the drinking and realized what it does to you and learned that you don't want to be that person anymore. That's a major step. Especially when things have been as difficult for you as they had been. Congratulations. That's awesome for you.
xoxo
kiss
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Weve been feeding my head, my body, and my selfesteem this weekend.
I feel so good even tho my bloodpressure is more fucked up than it ever was befor, and when i got a a bloodpreassure fall i heard this wrrrromwrrrromwroooomwrrrrrom sound inside my head and like 10 difrent male voices just being really loud and i started breathing really weird, and it NEVER was...
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ta2dmom:
If you want to know about Wicca I highly suggest getting in contact with Kaijou_GP
She's very knowledgeable about Wiccan things. In fact I'll go message her and tell her you're interested in learning about it. She really knows her stuff!
I'm glad to hear you're happy. And I hope the Blood Pressure thing can be fixed.
xoxo
kiss
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ta2dmom:
It's great to read a journal from you that sounds so happy. That's an awesome thing.
xoxo
kiss
silveronthetree:
Cheers for the jam aliensmile
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I feel so happy. Im listening to my mans music, drinking coffe, smoking cigarettes....
yeah... I just feel really really good. Eventho i get paid tomorrow and im already broke, it doesnt matter cus i just realized how fucking retarded it might sound, IM RICH ON LOVE!!
He is the prettiest thing! And i KNOW KNOW KNOW that this is gonna last forever.

IM SO...
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ta2dmom:
glad to hear it.
xoxo
ozblacke:
Hooray! Rich on love!! ^_^ I'm happy for you smile smile
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ta2dmom:
biggrin
xo
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It all just seems so fucking meaningless at the moment, i mean, i know its not
cus like, yeah...
but im feeling really bad, and i cant even be botherd getting into what happend at the hospitals i went to in Sweden. I didnt get any help. Apperently, the doctors in sweden are used to so good hash, that if u smoke it, youre high...
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ta2dmom:
I get worried when you're in such a bad place. I hope that you get the help you need from someone who's going to really listen to you.
Good luck hon.
xoxo
kiss
fredricka:
Legene gjorde det samme med meg. De fortalte foreldrene mine at jeg ryker hasj og foreldrene mine vet ikke at jeg ryker tobakk engang s det var litt av et sjokk for dem. Moren min begynte grte under et mte med dem p grunn av alle tingene de fortalte om meg som jeg mener de hadde taushetsplikt om. N hater jeg dem, bde legene for det de fortalte og foreldrene mine for at de n behandler meg som en jvla rusmisbruker.

Men Betty, du er ikke stygg. Ikke tro det om deg selv. Se heller p alle bildene du har tatt av deg selv. Du er faktisk utrolig fotogen, dessuten har jeg sett deg i virkeligheten ogs, s jeg vet hva jeg snakker om.
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So, its 2am within 12hours im on my way to the hospital in sweden.
Tobias mum will drive me to Malm, where i'll get picked up by my mum and brother.
And all i can think about is, how can i hurt myself as much as possible during these 11h? Cus once im in the hospital, oh i juts realaized it never stopped me from...
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deathbyopus:
good luck sweetie, hang in there
fredricka:
Da har vi noe til felles. Jeg er ogs innlagt igjen. Har vrt det siden oktober. Det er derfor jeg har begynt skrive litt p SG igjen, for ha noe gjre. Det kan sikkert vre godt for deg med et sykehusopphold, men jeg kjenner igjen den ambivalente flelsen: Nr man er drlig og ingen forstr at man trenger en innleggelse fler man seg avvist og nr man frst er inne p sykehuset vil man bare ut igjen. h, jeg skulle nske jeg kunne si noe som kunne ftt deg til fle deg bedre, men jeg vet bare ikke hva. Det enste jeg kan er nske deg lykke til.