you are the only one who holds my hair back when im drunk n get sick.
im so confused.
everythings upside down and dont know nothing. Its weird really. Im such a wreck, im just kickin stuff, throwing stuff, cursing, screaming cryiing banging my head, idunno, i should maybe go to the hospital n stay for a coupple of weeks n let em get me new meds n stuff, but i dont want my life to just stop, or do i`? I dont know.
i feel so bad n taking most of it out on torkel but really dont meen to, he kinda just... is there i guess.
however, no, i dont really have any good news everything sucks n i feel so ugly n i dont wanna go out, n idunno, i orderd some miracle weight loss fluids n coffee slender idun really belive in that shit but gotta do something, just anything really.
i think im gettin into a psychosis cus like, i dont remember what i say or do n i say n do the weirdest stuff n like i keep moving stuff around for a better feeling, better aura, n i go check the mail like 10times an hour but isnt expecting anything n i cant slerep, and everynowand then i realize i havent been in therapy since february, n maybe i do need it idunno, its all so messy n i dont even have a proper home, i live with mum but shge keeps yelling at me n idun even have my own room i guess id just like to have some place where i can realax im stressin up for the smallest things n idunno
im so confused.
everythings upside down and dont know nothing. Its weird really. Im such a wreck, im just kickin stuff, throwing stuff, cursing, screaming cryiing banging my head, idunno, i should maybe go to the hospital n stay for a coupple of weeks n let em get me new meds n stuff, but i dont want my life to just stop, or do i`? I dont know.
i feel so bad n taking most of it out on torkel but really dont meen to, he kinda just... is there i guess.
however, no, i dont really have any good news everything sucks n i feel so ugly n i dont wanna go out, n idunno, i orderd some miracle weight loss fluids n coffee slender idun really belive in that shit but gotta do something, just anything really.
i think im gettin into a psychosis cus like, i dont remember what i say or do n i say n do the weirdest stuff n like i keep moving stuff around for a better feeling, better aura, n i go check the mail like 10times an hour but isnt expecting anything n i cant slerep, and everynowand then i realize i havent been in therapy since february, n maybe i do need it idunno, its all so messy n i dont even have a proper home, i live with mum but shge keeps yelling at me n idun even have my own room i guess id just like to have some place where i can realax im stressin up for the smallest things n idunno
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I'm giving you a big hug.
Maybe a place of your own would be better for you indeed, or at least a plce to share with a room mate, not your mom...