bettydoll

Heylo lovies!!
I cant belive how hard it is to get some people to answer the phone. So basicly... No idunno. Its to early to say really... Im sittin here smoking ciggies drinking coffe being hardcore.
And gettin more n more worried about my future. See, i have this borderline personality disorder, but like. I might not get rid of it AT ALL. Im gonna meet a doctor and its very important meeting, cus hes kinda gonna deicide about my future. And im scared of whatever deicidsion he makes if he says, "No you could work, u wont get any more cash for being sick" That would suck, cus im no way in hell ready for work with those brainghosts ive got telling me to do stuff, or not being able to eat in public, or even being botherd eating with my famely. And well just alot of issus ive got. And if he says "holy fuck, youre so sick"! wich he more likely will... cus thats what theyve said for the past 4 years I might feel more sick than i really am... And im getting my papers from the Borderline rehab thingy i had theryapy at.... And im thinkin about reading them. How could i not? Im just scared ill end up at the hospital. well wel..