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i give up on guys. for now at least. maybe i'll be come a lesbian.. that could work!

i've decided to become bettie homemaker over the summer. i'm gonna start making my own clothes. as well as buying an extremely unrealistic amount of clothes and shoes online due to my amazing new job. $8.50 an hour, 40 hours a week. can't get much better right...
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keepinguasecret:
yay i might get that job too and we shall work together again lol
keepinguasecret:
yay u r back! lol
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i haven't updated this page in what seems like forever. i feel like i've dropped off the face of the earth.. but i'm back! wink
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this week has been absolutely devastating.

sunday night, wilkes-barre lost one of the greatest kids to ever walk it's streets. hutch was someone that everyone knew, even if they didn't know him well. he always had your back, even if he only knew you for ten minutes. he was an amazing person. i only had the opportunity to hang out with him a couple of...
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i don't know if anyone even reads this anymore.
probably not, but i just need to get so much off of my chest.
this week has been the week from hell.
i think i'm getting kicked out of my house.
that's not even the bad part though.

i honestly am beginning to think that i'm not worth loving or something.
i mean, every single relationship...
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broken_reality:
I've never tried to change myself for people, never even felt loved at all until I came here for my girl. I didn't know if I could feel love, having a smashed soul. She is the one person who seems to truly care about me, wants me, after an entire lifetime of emotional abuse and pain, first from my father, then from me for not being able to defend myself, considering he took away my confidence and esteem, leaving me crushed. When I am with her I feel good. I don't feel worthless, I don't feel pain. She is the only person ever able to nearly instantly relax me, remove my anger, even with just a smile. That is hard to do since anger is one of my core feelings, along with sadness....anyway, sorry if rambling, saw your profile after putting in my zip code, and well, I tend to be way emo. smile I think you are in the next town biggrin
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i haven't updated this in so long. things are going really well. finals are almost over. i have a year of college under my belt. that's amazing. i changed my major to nursing. so i have to take three courses over the summer, but oh well. i'd rather get it done now than wait and have to take another year of school.

i might be...
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i'm a mess again.
i don't know what is going on inside of my head, but i don't like it.
i hate feeling like this.
i hate having anxiety.
i wish i knew how to fix myself.
i need to just sleep for a week.
i'm so tired of everything.
i hate feeling this stressed out.
i'm afraid of losing pat and i don't even...
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horror_queen:
Congrats on not drinking doll! it can only do you good! Im trying it out myself! so far so good! biggrin kiss hope you feel better!
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does anyone know how to set email up on a cingular cell phone [particularly a motorola razr v3] so i can email pictures??
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new pic of the new hair.. it's a pretty shitty pic, but i'm too lazy to mess around with it in photoshop right now. i did too much of that before for myspace.. haha lame, yes i know.

i think my hair looks better x ten when it's up now.. it's starting to get long too! FINALLY!! next time i decide to cut my hair...
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theycallmegirl:
Girl, I'm with you on the hair up issue. About 4 weeks after every haircut... its up in a ponytail until I can afford another!
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so tonight i finally got to go to danville to see sean. he looked and sounded reallly good. he might be home tomorrow or saturday, so that's awesome. i was so happy to see him back to his normal self, and pat definitely was too. i can't wait for him to come home and be able to hang out with us all again soon.. i...
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lloydchristmas:
Danville...thats near where Im from...i go threw there all the time on the way to my sis house in scranton
theycallmegirl:
Hey. New to SG - saw you on my "friend" Pete's page (that dude above)...

You know, I tried to get "the fuck up" out of the library yesterday and they were all out! grr damnit
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i feel like tonight is gonna be another one of those nights where i hardly sleep..







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thank you to anyone who's praying for my friends. it means more to me than you'll ever know.
keepinguasecret:
of course Ashley, it was a horrible thing that happened!