betsyjane

Thanks so so so so much for all the awesome birthday wishes guys. Such happiness!

Sorry I haven't responded to anyone individually or been in any of my groups.

I'm way too busy damaging my liver, eating lots of sugar, playing with cute pets, making a little money, sleeping in, riding the subway for hours and hours, drinking vitamin water, getting free condoms, avoiding real things, playing with wax, getting bruises, giving bruises, and being allergic to just about everything to be on the internet for very long.

Life is pretty good but it all feels so..transitional...
I'm still in denial that I'm in new york.
I miss my friends.
I can't really unpack.
I miss my mom.
I miss traveling.
My life feels like....it's pretty nice/fun but something major is missing and I can't figure out what exactly other than a few ideas and it feels like it isn't my life.

Like I am in between my real life and the rest of my real life and I know this isn't true that I am living right now. I don't know how to make it feel real and make it feel like me.

I want to call everyone I have ever been friends with and everyone I have ever dated like they will fill the void and make it feel like my life again.

Eh. Halloween candy.
Happy Happy