betsy_maid

Today is not such a happy day. At first I had a bulimic relapse. I also had one yesterday, so everything started to feel pretty bad, and now, well, we were going to have a poker night but nobody wants to show up so I feel like when I was a kid and noone wanted to come to my birthday party. So I feel kinda sad. I don't like when people say for a week that they will come and then cancel in the last minute. It always makes me feel crappy. It's like when I had a party and only men showed up, because I have no female friends, and then everyone was thinking it was a bad party cause there were no girls. Sigh

Even my sister won't come tonight. Or at least I think she wont. She didn't seem to want to and it makes me sad. It all makes me sad. I just wanted to have a nice poker evening! God damn you people who won't show up!