betrayedbyhope

DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY FUCKING IDEA HOW MUCH IT HURTS TO KNOW THAT THE GIRL YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH, IS SAYING HOW HAPPY SHE IS NOW THAT YOU ARE NO LONGER IN HER LIFE!!! FUCK!!!!


.... My legs are shaking when i stand.. i feel so weak..

tomorrow will be seven days without food... and yet the thought of eating makes me sick... i know i should.. but i cant.. This really sucks.. Ill just continue on until i dissolve away into nothing... Meh, whatever.. Anyways, i hope everyone is doing well... Im sitting in class right now, wishing i was anywhere else.. i want to go back home.. i want to go back to my home in west palm beach...

i realize there was a reason i moved away from this place to begin with.. but i must have forgotten.. but now that im back.. i fully remember.. So much pain, and stress. Maybe its something in the air...who knows.. I realize most of you are probably tired of hearing how bad my life is going... but this is the only way i have to vent.

my trust in people has dissolved to almost none.. there are a rare few.. and even then... i no longer am so sure im willing to rely on others.. Ill lead a lonely life it seems.... but anything is better then the constant pain of losing love, trust, hopes, and dreams.

I'm so cold right now.. So Tired, So Hungry, but i cant get warmth, i cannot sleep.. and food makes me sick..

and worse of all.. I think ive forgotten how to smile.

~~~Songs of the moment - ~~~
Scars - Papa Roach
Under The Sun - Dry Cell
So Long Ago - Dry Cell
Last Time - Dry Cell