betrayedbyhope

I Havnt slept since friday

I havnt eaten since Thursday



I wanted to write a journal entry on how i feel.. but it is too hard to just write it.. so i write this poem instead.. using an old poem that i wrote long ago, and continuing it.... there is a small entry at the bottom of this too, incase you dont want to read my poem.....this is how i feel...


Confusion

Ive Travelled down a lonely road,
One which twisted as it turned.
The Path Was Paved With Fire and Thorns,
And I was cut and burned.

I tasted love and found it cold,
not warm and full of charm.
Ive learned that walls i built inside,
protected me from harm.

And then one day two eyes met mine,
they saw my very soul.
the love they gave healed all my wounds,
and sough to make me whole.

I walked again that road that day,
but everything looked anew.
now roses bloom above the thorns,
and all because of you.

So here is, a dream come true
how the tides have changed
My world that once had fallen apart
has seem to rearrange.

Though as time went by, the hopes had crashed
the dreams no longer true,
the fire and thorns grew back with a vengence
and all for the love of you.

So once again ive found this love,
that so loves to tear me apart
and so behind the walls it shall go
until again she breaks my heart.

For i shall wait, until my end
and risk my hopes betrayed
as much as it hurts i cant give up
because my love, will never fade...


-Betrayed By Hope

,,,... So yeah...... Everythings going wrong. Family life, love life, school life, work, and im bloody sick of it.. I just want to find a way to escape all of it...maybe i should leave the state again, maybe i should drop out, find new work in a place that has none, i dunno.. the only reason im still here is because this is where the girl i love is, and i dont even have her, im through being sad, im through crying. Im just angry now, angry with everything, angry with myself mostly. ya know, there is a quote from a movie that catches my mind...

"If you truly love someone, i mean, truly love them, then when do you get to the point where enough is enough..?"

now, in the movie, the girl couldnt come up with a real answer, as much as she tried... tried to justify what she did when she left the guy, but in the end.. she just.. Didnt.. Know..

come to find out.. the answer to that question.. was "never"