betelgeuse

sometimes i feel life is only as good as what you produce. i don't mean babies or vegetables..i mean moreso production of art or what you do best. i can't remember a time when i didn't do some sort of thing. write, or read, or explore nature, or make music, or paint without a plan. except maybe the last two months. which is funny cos i have had more time lately than ever, but with it came this complete lack of inspiration. it's been bugging me like crazy, so i have done things to try to get myself on track the last couple days. sewed together a blanket & tried to get out busking, but it feels like i'm wasitng my time.

ugh. so i come here & type blogs no one will read cos i'm not a "real suicidegirl" & i don't get paid, but everyone can see me naked anyway...

hahaha oh