bess

Ok, so I may have rushed things a little by getting my pen ready so soon. If I signed that lease, I'd be in debt up to my eyebrows... . I'm just going to stay here in this dump until spring and save money. I'll try not to complain about it so much.

The other day, I was trying to find some Tylenol because I had the worst headache and I was crying and I couldn't stop and I found my left over happy pills. I have, like, 4 months worth. I stopped taking them because I didn't want to pay the money anymore, but hot damn! This will get me through to spring. I was thrilled! Now, I can once again join the ranks of the living. Semi-living. I still work midnights, so I really can't be completely living.

So, I leave Saturday with mom. I'm going to miss my babies (the rats). We've never been apart! And Soodah is kind of sickly, so I'm going to worry...I know my friend will take good care of them, but still. I'll miss their littte faces.