Ugh I hate the holidays. I love my relatives but in very small doses. And my mom and I hate a scream out fight today cuz my daughters father wanted to see his daughter this weekend. I hate that I am still stuck as middle man between him and my mom. I can't win. I am in hell. My daughter is having a blast but...
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littlejohn22:
hope you thanksgiving rules
twodragons:
First Jar Jar and more we learn that in the Lucas universe turkeys have no wings.
so I am at an indoor water park for the weekend. With my daughter & her father (my ex husband). Weird, awkward, but good. She is having a blast & I'm enjoying watching her.
unfort. i hit my head so my head is tender & the chlorine is burning my eyes (and i didn't open my eyes underwater).
Oh yeah & i petted a tiger...
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evil_dad:
Every spring my ex and I end up sitting together watching my son's lacrosse tournament. We talk about how he is doing, and catch up a little about family. It is the only time we are ever civil to each other. Most of the time we won't speak to each other because it just degenerates into a giant fight.
hooeylewis:
I hope you are feeling better. Now I want to pet a tiger =P
how i've been feeling lately:
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pascipio:
Beq, there is a lot of love for you here. I know you have come out of a situation where there have been trust issues. There are people here you can trust. Stay strong. Things will turn your way. You will not know it at first. Then,problems that once looked like insurmountable Alps you will kick away like pebbles on the street. You will look back and say "Oh yes, that's where it started." These days will come.
littlejohn22:
excellent music
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chefdaddy:
nice one.
lectorvyal:
i know someone who would like that
So last night I received a 4 page apology. Half a box of Kleenex later, I was able to compose myself a bit.
Angry
Sad
Angry
Sad
Angry
Resolved
Still sad.
On the one hand, since I wasnt expecting an apology of any kind, it was appreciated. On the other hand, the apology hurt almost as much as the betrayal. If not more.
Woke up...
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Angry
Sad
Angry
Sad
Angry
Resolved
Still sad.
On the one hand, since I wasnt expecting an apology of any kind, it was appreciated. On the other hand, the apology hurt almost as much as the betrayal. If not more.
Woke up...
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ollyp:
Remember that an apology can be almost as manipulative as abuse, if not more so. It was unsolicited, it's not relevant to your decision, and I guess you know that. Big hugs though 
mrdave1369:
HUG
davidqueen:
You should definitely stay. that is if you are thinking of leaving SG, if it is somewhere else I would need more info to make a decision.
Please don't leave SG...
Please don't leave SG...
9005900:
I love her "Anything could happen" ! Amazing gift she has!!!
Now I'm tired of trying to keep you.
All I want to do is sleep.
And perhaps, when I'm sleeping,
You'll get back on your feet.
Maybe we forgot all the things we are, we are together...
I know what you're thinking.
It will never be the end.
And when the storm is over,
You won't see me again.
Didn't know the price I paid...
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All I want to do is sleep.
And perhaps, when I'm sleeping,
You'll get back on your feet.
Maybe we forgot all the things we are, we are together...
I know what you're thinking.
It will never be the end.
And when the storm is over,
You won't see me again.
Didn't know the price I paid...
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blossy:
Thank you for your comment on my blog. I've got a long road ahead, but you know life is worth living and people who don't want me in their lives don't get me in them. I'm stopping this madness of always being the broken down spineless weakling who knows when to give up but doesn't want to. With this current situation it feels different, I know I should fight a little more, but in a stronger way.
I wrote this in 2004. (and funnily enough I didn't write it about anyone in particular)
Dirty Bird
Fade into you / fade out from me
Suffocate my unconscious
Creep into me / And bleed out for you
You rub me raw with intent
Breathe into you / And sigh out for me
Inflate my apathy
Fighting within / I did it again
But I'm...
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Dirty Bird
Fade into you / fade out from me
Suffocate my unconscious
Creep into me / And bleed out for you
You rub me raw with intent
Breathe into you / And sigh out for me
Inflate my apathy
Fighting within / I did it again
But I'm...
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beqa:
It was originally.
greggster:
omg that dress is amazing!!!
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majorboredom:
so... like... what is that?
so... like... what is that?
She wants me to stand up to him
He wants me to stand up to her.
I just want them to argue with each other and leave me the fuck out of it.
I can't wait to get the hell out of here.
I am so fucking bored.