So yesterday the whole "omg my baby is growing up fast" thing FINALLY hit me. I dropped my boo off at school & started toward work & suddenly i was crying. Stupid part was I wasn't thinking about her when i started crying so it took me a while to realize why i was so suddenly emotional. LOL.
Then I got a call from the Principal at 4pm.
My daughter had been so busy playing rock paper scissors (wait...she knows rock paper scissors? since when?) with a kid in line for another bus that she missed her bus to the YMCA.
Called her father & told him the story. G's Dad: "wait...she knows rock paper scissors? since when? i didn't know she knew that" LMAO. Good its not just me!
Its funny cuz the last 2 weeks have made my friendship with her dad blossom. Its no longer awkward polite friendship ... now its ... well its more than friendship, but def not romantic in any way... i would say maybe sibling best friend? i've known people who had that. i didn't. my only sister & i are polar opposites. i love her...in very very very very small doses. we have never gotten along.
but then again saying sibling bestfriend about a man i had married & had a kid with & divorcing...creepy...so yeah no...
he is family
I've always been thankful that we were able to remain friends for G's sake. But now I am thankful for my sake & his. I really do cherish his friendship. And on some level I wish things could have worked out for us...but I am so much happier in many ways & it appears that he is too.
My head is swimming. I've had a lot of heavy shit to think about thrown my way.
My mom basically gave me the closest thing to an approval as she ever gives in terms of the men i date. She made a joke about G's dad not living long if she stays as crazy anxiety man as he is (plus he is 53)...she said, "I hope RustBelt knows that he will probably have to raise G."
WOAH what???
Then I was talking to G's dad & he was talking about how G keeps bugging him to get a dog. I mention that i know some one who might need to get rid of a cute ass dog. I hesitated & told him who...he asked about the dog....ffw to yesterday...i said to him tenatively "i could maybe have Rust bring the dog over...maybe this weekend or something"....G's dad: "Yeah that would be cool". No hint of anger, jealousy, hurt. He actually did seem "cool" with the idea...
And yet....I feel like....*sigh*
Then I got a call from the Principal at 4pm.
My daughter had been so busy playing rock paper scissors (wait...she knows rock paper scissors? since when?) with a kid in line for another bus that she missed her bus to the YMCA.
Called her father & told him the story. G's Dad: "wait...she knows rock paper scissors? since when? i didn't know she knew that" LMAO. Good its not just me!
Its funny cuz the last 2 weeks have made my friendship with her dad blossom. Its no longer awkward polite friendship ... now its ... well its more than friendship, but def not romantic in any way... i would say maybe sibling best friend? i've known people who had that. i didn't. my only sister & i are polar opposites. i love her...in very very very very small doses. we have never gotten along.
but then again saying sibling bestfriend about a man i had married & had a kid with & divorcing...creepy...so yeah no...
he is family
I've always been thankful that we were able to remain friends for G's sake. But now I am thankful for my sake & his. I really do cherish his friendship. And on some level I wish things could have worked out for us...but I am so much happier in many ways & it appears that he is too.
My head is swimming. I've had a lot of heavy shit to think about thrown my way.
My mom basically gave me the closest thing to an approval as she ever gives in terms of the men i date. She made a joke about G's dad not living long if she stays as crazy anxiety man as he is (plus he is 53)...she said, "I hope RustBelt knows that he will probably have to raise G."
WOAH what???
Then I was talking to G's dad & he was talking about how G keeps bugging him to get a dog. I mention that i know some one who might need to get rid of a cute ass dog. I hesitated & told him who...he asked about the dog....ffw to yesterday...i said to him tenatively "i could maybe have Rust bring the dog over...maybe this weekend or something"....G's dad: "Yeah that would be cool". No hint of anger, jealousy, hurt. He actually did seem "cool" with the idea...
And yet....I feel like....*sigh*
hugs