I posted this in the
chatters group and thought it'd be nice to have it here too. Although I don't think there's a whole heck of a lot of you who are gonna read it here that aren't in that group.
Before I was here on SG I chatted on irc.sexnet.org. I registered my nickname there in August of 2000. I was talking in a porn channel called #Mystikal^Vampyres for like a year before that on dalent. Before that all I'd used the internet for was downloading stuff like porn and music and warez and used AIM to talk to my friends that I'd known from school. Before 1995 I'd never used a computer (although I had built some from ICs since I was an electronics geek.)
The only reason I logged into IRC was for mp3s in the first place.
SPOILERS! (Click to view)Around that time I was introduced to black metal. There was very little black metal to be had here in America and about the only way to get it was to download it from folks in Europe. At first there was pretty much one channel to get it from, #Mp3_Death. That channel, of course, was dedicated to death metal and there wasn't as much representation of black metal as I wanted. So I created #Mp3-Black which, after a month er so of people coming in looking for jazz and Body Count, we changed to #Mp3-Blackmetal.
During the early time of the channel there wasn't much goin on in there, of course, so I also went into the gothic porn channel #Mystikal^Vampyres. In the there was the first time I was really exposed to any type of online relationships. I'd talked to a few girls in there but never met them in person.
After a year er so of chatting with Tori and Abbey, they banned me from the room so I went out lookin' for another place and discovered sexnet. Sexnet was just like SG in all the hookin' up, all the rumors, and basic soap opera ness. On there I got to talkin' to this girl and developed an infatuation to end all infatuations, chicky.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) (She's the only girl whos picture is in my profile and ever has been (with the exception of buttshots)) I still have never met her, talked to her on the phone, or seen her on cam. There's no way for me to be 100% certain that she isn't even some computer program being run on a supercomputer deep in the Nevada desert. Or a guy (she knows more about small block Chevys than I do). I still talk to her on yahoo.
The first girl I ever had any sort of romantic-type relationship is another girl that I never saw in person or on cam, sexlover.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) I'm thinkin' that's a good thing because I really like short small women and this girl was all of 6' 2" tall and weighed more than any man in this group that I can think of right now.
Talking to this girl really taught me a lot about relationships in general. Ya see, some people might say that online relationships are different than relationships where all of the interaction happens in person, but they're just not looking at human interaction in a true sense, I think. People will do the same thing as what sexlover did even if they only know the person from face to face interaction. I even caught myself doing it with this girl from a strip club that I had a crush on.
What happened in this relationship (as well as countless ones afterward) is right at first the girl saw that I was able to provide her with something she really needed a lot. I'd let her know how I really enjoyed talked to her, let her know how the pictures I'd seen of her really turned me on, and she saw that and just saw total salvation. Of course she didn't know jack shit about me, but she wouldn't toss her whole heart and soul into a relationship like that so she just filled in all the blanks with whatever she wanted about me. Man, you'd hear her talk about me and I was like some comic book super hero able to leap tall buildings with a single cum spurt, I could fuck faster than a locomotive, I never slept, and always fought for the good guy.
This happened with another girl that I talked to, Emma.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) My god this woman was gorgeous. An Australian girl just barely 18 years old, she saw how I was always in a good mood and always being as funny as I could and filled in all the blanks with whatever she wanted in a guy and decided that I was her soul mate. Of course I have yet to go to Australia so I've never met her in person. Shortly after talking to her she was raped and beaten into a coma (that's not sarcasm, I read the news bulletin that a friend of hers who chatted in there too linked me to). I talked to her once after that a few weeks later when she got out of the hospital. Obviously she was not the same person and pretty much didn't want to talk to anyone else again ever.
The first girl I ever met in person that I'd first come into contact with online was this girl named ecilam. She's still the only perfect person I've ever met.
After Kristen had died I talked to this girl, Aabbee, who lived in Whitehorse Canada. She was an interesting one. Obsessed with never going on cam I only saw her hand once.
lives in Seattle, lilsassybonita.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) She still chats on sexnet. The first time I met her in person was in Vegas attending the
Ska Summit. While there I met a girl who said she was an SG and gave me a sticker. I stuck it on the bill of my hat and it's still there today. I have no idea who she was. Shortly after getting back from the ska summit I signed up here and one of the first things I did was go through every girl and look at every set that they had. Back then there were a LOT less girls and a LOT less sets and each set was only a few pictures long. It only took me like 3 days of a few hours a night after work to go through every set ever released by SG. Up until around 2005 I maintained that I'd seen every set ever from every girl. In 2005 it just got to be too much though and a bunch started slipping through.
Sorry, got off on a rant. I met lilsassy and this other girl, Amanda, there and hung out with them for the weekend and went back home.
A few months later I developed a big crush on a girl named Jenna who lived in Azusa.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) No real relationship developed between us, however I just didn't feel right having lilsassy all head over heels in love with me and me falling asleep at night thinking about some other girl so I told lilsassy about it. This also coincided with one of her old friends moving back near her so I thought it was the best thing to do and the best time to do it so she wouldn't feel bad about seeing someone who lived near her.
Toward the end of the relationship with lilsassy I had already been chatting in the SG chat room as well as the sexnet chat room (I was using bersirc so I was chatting in both rooms simultaneously) but I was spending more time chatting in the SG room than on the rooms on sexnet. Eventually it got to where everyone in there was feeling igNoired so I pretty much stopped going in there altogether. and just focused on SG. After that, pretty much everything is all outlined in my journals.
