benjiwa

I swear that the older i get the less i feel like i have my shit together.
Right now my shit is so all over the place i couldnt find it all, even if i had a week of spare time and a metal detector.

Job front is going strange, applied for quite a few new jobs, and even had one of the places i regularly photograph contact me about possibly working with me direct and cutting out the company i work for (which actually does nothing apart from take a good chunk of the money that i earn). Lots of people aproaching me to work with them on portfolio work also, gratifying to see that my name is getting out thereand that people like my style of shooting, but kind of annoying that none of them actually want to do any work towards actually organising a shoot. So while they want to work with me, they dont really want to 'work' per se.

Personal life is just about dead at the moment. Made a few new friends but most of the others have been out of contact as we are all just flat out these days.

Also starting to think im completely socially retarded as I feel super uncomfortable in crowds these days, despite working in nightclubs. Makes me antsy talking to anyone for more than 5 minutes now. :/